I need to pee but here I am frantically searching for something to do online, funny how something so urgent also, I find myself so lazy to go and do it.

I think I really need to first and foremost, reset my body clock and start sleeping properly and getting ONLY 8 hours of sleep per day. I keep sleeping and sleeping my life away. Tomorrow is another busy day with a back to back interview of hopefully not another shitty job and then should be meeting some of the rest to go to the Suntec City's career fair. After which, I hope to come back home and hit the gym for an hour or two and then organize my wadrobe.

Stupid me went to throw away my organizer because I thought that "Hey, I just graduated, right? "There shouldn't be so many things to do but THERE IS! There is so many appointments I have made that got me booked to a gazillion years but I cannot do anything about it because I dun have a job=no money!

So I am going to do up a calender purely to focus on two things and two things only because my mum's issue done with, got her under control, so to speak. Firstly, about looking in the mirror a bit more because right now, I am so contented that I dun bother getting up and being active. In layman's term, I have been eating and sleeping and eating and sleeping. And my hair is all fried up because, erm, i tie it into a bun and forget about it. And my SKIN.... ugh, my skin is dull! And...and, dun even get me started on my dark circles ok! This post is going to be purely superficial ok.

So here's my superficial wishlist:(not shopping for clothes more like beauty products things)

• ROC dark circles treatment (because I look 20 years older than my age)

• Sunscreen (non-oily)SPF 50
• Moisturizer for night and day
• A good eyeliner that does not smudge and is BLACK

Let me digress ok, there was a time when my nickname when I was in primary school and secondary where I was being bullied for being dark-skinned. No, not indian, I was really dark skinned and looked oily and greasy and was called names. And then, I was attracted to this particular indian ad of 'Fair and Lovely'. At that point of time, I had no money but wanted to try it. We could not use compact in school and the only thing I wore was fair and lovely because there is a lil bit of powder in there. And when I was in Sec 4, there was a BIG difference in my skin tone. And I stopped there, and started trying out other more expensive moisturizers. And I never thought anything about it. Recently, my beauty cash bank has hit rock bottom, so I went back to using fair and lovely.

A funny thing happened, I went to Jay's place the other day and went to talk to Jay in one corner. The maid ran to his sister and told her that Jay is with a different girl. The sister was puzzled and went to investigate and called out to Jay, making me turn as well. She took one glance at me and stared at the maid and said it is the same girl! She said in tamil, this one prettier than the other one, fairer... I went like, WHAT? And she is not the only one which led me to think that this fair and lovely really works sia! BUT BUT BUT, my skin is still dry so maybe I need to use both this one and a hydrating moisturizer.

Skin aside, I am thinking of relaxing my hair because I love my curls but it is making me feel soooo messy and I need a change. And, I was thinking of dying over my highlights and having a deep obvious brown like

But a bit darker so it won't be so obvious when it grows out.

Bah, I can talk all I want, first, let me go and get a job.

I need to go sleep. Just did a egg yolk mask on my face, now the pores soo much less obvious. My hit list keep going up but nobody's tagging. Just wanted to know who would be interested if I were to post videos, let me know. =)