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Thursday, February 26, 2009
kabhi kabhi

Ok, I can kind of say that I have graduated. I just have one paper which I missed but I studied for it already and have submitted my MCs. Could not join my classmates for their get together because I had an interview with Francis which I already cancelled like 3 times so I had to get my ass down there.

After that, I headed out to meet Jay and we dropped by our regular pool joint and had a couple, met a couple of friends. Leandra, you know, the curly hair girl in Singapore Idol last time told me a shocking revelation about our very own Taufik Batisah and I asked her, 'What was she thinking?'. She got a tad high and went off with new friends and left poor aussie guy alone. Funny girl.

Got a couple of things lined up and I cannot believe I graduated la. But still, all those studying for 3 years cannot help but to sigh a sigh of gloom and doom due to our current economical crisis. It's FUCKING HARD, I tell you. Sis's chalet on this Sat. Would be nice to get together with her.

I want to use this time to get together with everyone I made plans with but cancelled.
These past months have been shit.

I made a resolution to stop thinking of Jay as someone I am trying to mould to be a good life partner and just take things slow and easy. In fact, my resolution is to start moving and to stop taking everything so seriously and just do instead of being such a worry wart. If it sticks, it will. If not, too bad. right?

k k, going to go and sleep now, somebody make me strike lottery.

Monday, February 23, 2009

I really don't understand. What the fuck am I doing???

I need to get a grip on myself and be fucking aware!
I CANNOT BELIEVE I DID SOMETHING LIKE THAT!

Sunday, February 22, 2009
AmPm

I have a feeling that this is going to be a long one and a very confession-heavy post at that.

Ok, this is the reason why it is that I refrain from socializing right now, ok and always postpone all plans.

1) I am usually broke and by broke, I dun mean no money at all but because I have to scrimp and it sucks.

2) Everytime I want to go out, my mum makes this face and attitude that brings out A LOT of guilt in me that I am leaving her alone at home and suddenly, it spoils my mood and I would much rather stay in (read: save money also).

3) I feel like a slob because my life is dis-organized and I dun feel productive. Zilch.

But now, I am feeling better. I feel empowered.

1) I dun intend to smoke anymore (it's been 3 days = only 2 sticks!), much less spend 10 bloody bucks on 20 sticks of nothing.

2) I am starting to get used to it and I get the feeling she is getting used to it as well.

3) I am still a slob but I am hell bent on getting that job tomorrow.

Alsoooo, I haven't studied anything at all for IMC. Buying ok la but IMC is zilch. Sigh.
I guess tomorrow after job hunting and all that jazz, I am going to get myself more paper and a good pen and sit myself down and finish the whole book. Wish me luck.

I sometimes wish my bf is not that possessive of me. It's like he gets rashes if I want to be away from him for awhile. Space, please. Goodness.

much loves, peeps.

Saturday, February 21, 2009
Cordial

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Been having it pretty slow this weekend.

Stayed over at his place, mostly. His place always have good food. And chivas. =)

Question: Is it just me or does other people's laptops have ants crawling out of them??

I am currently ecstatic that I have been getting enough sleep and now that
I have cut down my nicotine sticks to already 1 stick a day(!)
(the most difficult being after a meal), my appettite's gone up!
But I refrain from eating excessively by mixing up some cordial in my H2O.
I am determined to get better skin and a healthier body.

It's raining cats and dogs down here in the North side and I am getting
sleepy again but my stomach's making some hardcore noise and I am
waiting for my mum to reach Yishun int already.

Got me an interview tomorrow evening and going to resign these four days
to do some hardcore revising. And then, I hope things at home would get lighter.
I still want to go to JB for a night out with the sis or whoever wants to come.
And I still need a proper outing with the tots, wherever they are.

I miss my girls, really badly.

Bah, I am gonna go fry an egg.
Loves.

Thursday, February 19, 2009
Sticky situation

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YAY! Seems like my hair is finally much longer and more tame.
Woooooooots.

K peeps, let me just say it out here what it is I did today.

Day one
Jogged : 30 mins
Danced: 20 minutes

Tomorrow would be meeting him. Should be a chilled out day. I STILL need a job.
Bah. Maybe I should go revise first.
Bye.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Postnatal

OH MY GOD!

Yesterday, I followed the sister down to try a trial version of the London Weight Management place, you know the place that is featured in ''Beauty Files" in Channel 5? Yea, that one. Firstly, we had to go for a consultation, I was so demoralized, I tell you. So, since i very-the 'kepo', I had the opportunity to receive a trial as well. I only got two courses so the first one is when we had to enter a sauna which is much hotter than any of the saunas I have ever been in, and trust me, I love a good sauna. Right when I entered the place, my pores on my hands, leg and EVERYWHERE started perspiring, BIG TIME. Me and my sister had to stay there for an excruciating 15 minutes.

We showered and then I was led to a room where they applied this lavender ampure(?) thingy and wrapped a hot blanket on me. Why? To remove the water in my body and toxins, too. I sweated like 5 drop per second, I am not bluffing you! My heartbeat pumped as if I am sprinting but all I am doing is lying down! Just these two treatment that takes less than 1 hour made me drop half a kilo!!!!

I swear it's fucking awesome, if you have a credit card, that would be more awesome because you can pay only 150 per month. Goodness, anyone who is interested, ask me, k? I can get cheaper price for you. My sister signed up, I am just going to try exercising first. Then, can try and psycho mum once the financial situation is better.

After London, I dropped by my sister's place to learn that my nephew can walk already and he does this face that makes him look like the spawn of the devil. Adorable. After that, scooted off to meet my sick boyfriend and hang around with his boss since the boss won't be coming back to Singapore for quite awhile.

I like his Italian boss, totally witty. But Jay does not like it, though when I talk too much and he is not in the spotlight, so, tried my best to keep quiet

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Right.
I talked and talked and talked. =)

We went down to our fave place to have a few drinks and resigned, at 2am, to the fact that we were both really tired. I slept only two hours the previous night before waking up at 4am to help my mum out at the shop and then went out all the way. We went back to his place and snored the remainder of the night away. He went to work and I went back home. Time check: 1015am and I am still not asleep. I am dead serious about losing this weight, I bought prata back home but I am not touching it at all. I might even try to quit smoking.

Because HE just woke up one day and decided to quit and have not been smoking for the past week! I am going to try to do the same. k k, going to sleep Thursday away.

Goodnight, world.

Sunday, February 15, 2009
RANT

Hey peeps, opened the create post window like from 3pm. Time check : 11:07pm.

Was doing up my resume and posting it to like damn a lot of companies. Please hire me, I need a proper job already. I need a proper pay packet already.

Ok, this time, i promise I really really will start losing weight, seriously. I can't bear it no more. Ok, no more chocolates, sweet drinks and CHICKEN CURRY. PLEASE. My brother is already starting on his weight loss thingy. Cannot stand this at all.

Ok, another thing, the government is giving me money and what do I do with it, pay my bills! You know what I could have done instead? Buy a camera. GOSH! FUCK ME la ok, for being so fucking stupid.

Another thing, how can a girl be SO gorgeous, you tell me?? Everytime, I look at her, I feel like kicking my face in the mirror. Secondly, why do I have such fat fingers? If u slim down, will your fingers slim down too? Grr.

BYE.

YAY!

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joy

How did you spend your Valentine's?

Have been going through some rough times right now and I am starting to wonder why this blog still exist actually. For a moment, I had to take some time to rectify all the things that were going wrong in my relationship, family and in my plans after graduation. Truthfully, I cannot really express how glad I am that I am left with the two final steps that is my papers due on the 24th and 25th.

This relationship I have with him is soooo different from the others that I have been in. This relationship is all about prepping ourselves for the next step. I love him a lot lot and we need to do some major sprucing up to our lives in order to stand one another.

" I don't believe in divorce, I believe in murder" - i said.
"I had a dream, u killed me with a chopper while I was sleeping" -he said

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

After one week of giving him the cold shoulder, we finally talked it out and realised that this is worth it. Love is when it hurts holding on and when it hurts letting go. Oh gosh, I am blabbing like an idiot. The point of this entry is not to make you puke but to give some words in this blog and ended up all about him. bah. Promise this is not going to be a habit.

After talking and jiggyjaggy, we spotted this aeroplane thingy from like looooong ago from this mama shop. LOL. He bought the big one, i bought the small one. But his suck.



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Wednesday, February 11, 2009
euphoria?

It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.



Sorry seems to be your hardest word.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009
use-much


Underworld was good. There's something not right in this, I think and tomorrow, I shall address it with him. I need to move on and I really do not know if this is the right thing or not. Man, I hate this.

I really hate this.

LATE

It's about time, i just post up my late late late KL trip so that when I look back through the archives, at least I have something to remember that trip by.

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NOT AT ALL IN ORDER BUT NAH!