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Thursday, December 28, 2006

A night in the Museum was funny and all but i think if u want to watch a movie worth paying for, wait for Video EZ to release this movie and opt for another one more worth it.

"Quiet! My dumbdumb wants to speak"

Today was a doubledate with my bro, Dell, Regan and me @ Bugis. Since i am working at my mum's shop tomorrow morning at bloody 4am, we needed to rush back home. It is less torturing for me since i am working my last day tomorrow at Kaki Bukit where my dad will allow me to sleep in a lot later than my brother. Before going home, Regan and I browsed through the shops in Bugis, searching for a pair of jeans for mua. I just realised that the reason for my almost barren wadrobe is that i only window shop. Once i have money in my hands, shopping is not the first thing in my mind. Oh well.

I just checked my outstanding balance for my bill today. Guess i have to clear up 80 bucks now. Well, before i get any stupid letter and the amount snowballs which means dejavu.
Oh well, just a short post before i head for the sack.
See ya.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006
.: IOU :.

And as usual, my pictures are always later than the posts.

So here goes,

Christmas

I've never seen anything special about Christmas.It was only another excuse for me to hit the clubs and live it up but this was the first christmas i had spent with someone who actually celebrates it. And thus, i have decided to celebrate Christmas for the rest of my life. There is something about it which makes it so full of... happiness. Maybe it is because everything's on sale. Nah, just kidding. I have decided to buy a BIG Christmas tree should I own my own house, with presents and everything.

So, we spent Christmas, or rather, Christmas Eve together for the first time.


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The weekend started off with me rushing back from his place the previous night, thinking that my brother was at home all ready to go to my sister's bbq which she occasionally organize at her corridor. A get together, kind of. This occasion was my darling nephew's birthday. I did not get a snapshot of him as he was running all over the place with his blue power ranger costume someone bought him. There was a crappy magic show and all, the works. After which he left for Penang and the adult drinking and gambling session took place. We Indians drink and gamble. bwuahahaha.
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The host
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CT and hubby
Can u see the 1/4 of the beer cans on the table?
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Regan came by with the rest of the guys after a game, where they won 2-1. Go COCHISE! (??)
And we stayed there for a bit till I got bored of seeing them gamble. Wanted to watch a movie but decided to go home to continue the third and final episode of Lord Of The Rings, The Return of The Kings. But we fell asleep even before inserting the DVD in.
Woke up the next morning on the Christmas Eve to help cook the feast. I helped cut the veggies la... Oh well.
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U trust this chef?
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(Look what he puts in our food!!)
Ingredients for pasta and Garlic bread.
I cut the bread!
Went to buy more stuff, and Regan did his last minute Christmas shopping. BLARDIE LAST MINUTE TO THE MAX! Met Thipa and her sis, Kav. By the time we reached home, dinner was served.
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The poor turkey no one could finish.
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Clyde, Regan's Bro and Thipa, his gf.
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Kav and her bf, Harry( I think that's how it is spelled)
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Retarded Santa and Bf...err..nvm.
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His mum, ze real chef.
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After wine.
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Yummyliciouss garlic bread.
We had so much food and was so stuffed that we went on to unwrap presents before continuing to eat again. Pity, i did not have pics of the unwrapping of presents. Unfortunately, lil' broke me had to apologize profusely for not bringing any. Oops.
After dinner, i went home and slept with a big ass smile on my face.
Here's to many more Christmas to come baby, and a whole new year.
Like u.

Monday, December 25, 2006
.: black & white :.

I used to close my eyes so tight and wish everything away. Pushing away anything trying to penetrate into my thoughts; FEAR. Bad whiffs of dark clouds, my demons, i call them, provoking me.I refuse to open my eyes. I endured all the torment just so I could keeo myself in the safe state of mind. I dreamt of happy days, laughter, honesty, momentarily numbing myself of the outside world. It pains. It pained. Lonely little girl, screaming in the house. Uncertainties. Why-s? What if-s? They take the form of black butterflies and toxic bubbles. Life was full of butterflies and bubbles.
My fists clenched so tight,my nails dug deep into the flesh of my fist. It doesn't hurt. Beneath the tightly shut eyes, stars appeared on black velvet. Fireworks. It hurts. I spin, round and round and round. Bile starts running to my throat. It hurts.
Wind entered the room. Demons fled. Like white chiffon, it stroked my ebony hair. Like long pianist's fingers, it caresses the strands of my tresses. It whispered honey into my ears. It felt good. Like a devoted mother, it held both my hands in its. Healed, the wound where i bled. Unclenched my fist gently and it laid them on my lap. Like an artist, it erased the creases of my frowning forehead. It felt good. Beneath my eyes, colours over black velvet. Laughter, love, no pain, just virginal happiness. At its simplest. A smile crept on my face. Bubbles of mirth escaped my lips. I laughed and i laughed some more.
A voice," Have hope, my love,". Serene. Dark cloaks were lifted. It left through the window. I tried running after it. It's gone.
I feel good.
It was Hope.

Sunday, December 24, 2006
.: MERRY CHRISTMAS YA'ALLS :.

After loads of pasta, soup, turkey and stuff, i came home while mentally preparing myself for work the next morning when i found out that my mum's taking off tomorrow. Stupid!

If not, we could have gone St James. But oh well, I think i am falling ill soon. I got the lump in my throat which is so weird because i have not been smoking much also. You know, the kinda lump that starts before a fever. I think i need to rest.

Will tell u more about christmas soon. See ya!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

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I am VERYY late in posting this. But this is the Sentosa trip i was talking about. Enjoy.




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Just getting started.




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Aww.. Dang! I missed them so much! THE TOTS!


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SO this is what we win when we play stupid 'hak' games. After a while, Regan won three and we got bored.


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When tots are in Sentosa, what are they known to do? What else? Truth or DARE!





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Suker FIIIII

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This dare was stupid, it was to dare these two lovebirds to make out. I think they just wanted a show. I have perverted friends.


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I wasn't there! hmph!

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Nys and her two birthday gifts.
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My fav girls in the whole world, plus sha!

I am too lazy to blog so... will see ya next time.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006
.: Techniefreakie :.

Ignore my previous post, it was one of those days where i just did not want to go to bed with frown lines on my face so i ranted here.

Ok, so here goes. He said sorry for over-reacting and that he is a kental and that's why i like him. Ok baby? =)

So i am currently working with my mum and dad at the shop. They have two shops, food stalls selling Indian food. I am working at Kaki Bukit for now. The work there is currently relaxed compared to the Potong Pasir shop. I get to sleep in the car till 9 compared to my brother who has to START at 5.30am. *sniggers.

So today was okay, my parents have such rude comments. I go to the shop wearing veryyyy slack, u have no idea. My father asked me to wear something nicer because i look like a girl who they kidnapped from India and asked to work here for cheap labour. Firstly, there is no such thing as cheap in S'pore and secondly, wear so nice for waaat? I'll still smell like curry and vegetarian food at the end. Bah. Fine.

So today we went to have black pepper crab at S11. ;) Can anyone say yummy? I am so tired this week, been giving excuses to stop working out. Then my mum just had to say that i putting on weight, so off to the gym, i go. I am trying to go everyday now, considering the fact that Christmas' coming, and New Year's, and Hari Raya Haji and it's the holidays, and there's food all around me at work. I have decided not to eat at my parent's shop anymore. So much oil and curry. Come on, man, i think i would much rather use all that space for booze(Read: Fattening).

Met Regan yesterday and caught almost half of the next episode of Lord of The Rings. I need a marathon. He almost bought a flat screen TV and a camera for me yesterday. Ok, he wanted to pay for it first. A/c payable. My liability. But the promotion ended. Not for the TV, who cares about THAT?, the camera! So i have decided to check Courts for Christmas offers. Maybe Friday.

I wanted to blog about so many things but it is safe to say i have been working 12 hours already and i am sleepy, and tired.

I am such a gadget freak. I thought 3 Megapixels were impressive. Try Nokia N95, fucking 5 Mp! Or was it 8? Either way, holy cow!! Handphones are eliminating Mp3 and cameras, ya'alls! Creative, Nano, get ur coat. Make way for these buys! OH no.. i remember now, Samsung's the one with the 8 Mp cam. And it is not so much for buying but just to show what they are capable of. They are still thinking whether to release it in Singapore. Well, WE GET IT, SAMSUNG! U THA BOMB! Now, get them over here. *sigh, times like this, i wished i was working.
OOhh, and and.. Ipod are releasing their 8gb nanos now, at the price of the the current 4 gb nano! With extra features. IDIOTS! Now, then tell me, but only in black/grey.
Ok, u can wake up now, i don't know how many girls i bored now. With a fan base of like 2 million, what i say matters, ya' know. NOT.

Today, i was smiling like a goon. I must have done something right to have people who cares around me. That was totally off but whatever. I am going to Courts on Fri, i need a digicam!

I need my sleep. Nights!

Monday, December 18, 2006
.: ARGH :.

It is one thing to care. It is another thing to care so much. Why not just play it cool like him?
Ah.. FUCK! i need to cry to sleep now. Goodnight.
Wonder why little things make him so bothered.
I need to take my own advice. I am too into him right now.
And i feel clingy.
I need to chill.

.: Let the weekend begin :.

And so, right after bloody school on Friday where finally, i settled 'The case of my attendance', I went off to Tampines.

Firstly, to visit my god-mum and secondly, to get some reminiscent of how the good ol' times were. I forgot how noisy the house was. So, the problem that day was that Faris, the oldest one decided to shave a mowhawk on his head with the anarchy symbol on the sides. * oh, the naivety of the youth. * Which was stupid because the A looked like the Jewish symbol which infuriated his pious father to the bloody core. And he has to shave his hair bald. He looked hillarious. bwuahahaha.

Met Sha and Fi after that and headed off to Cocco Latte where Shyanne was. Mat Noor and Zafir went too. The place was empty, so we decided to entertain ourselves with shots, pics and just talks about 'gorillas'. So let the pictures do the talking.

There are lots of pics ok.
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Just us girls. And like, 3/4 of my face.

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I dun know how much of this I had. But i am sure Fi had a fair amount.



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Shy loves ma boobies.

We were trying to do different poses for the camera but apparently, I just could not do the slut face which was so frustrating. I WANNA BE ABLE TO DO A SLUT FACE, OK?

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This we had no problem. Funny face.
But i guess Fi's face is too scary.

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This, ladies and gentleman, is the slut face i was talking about.
I look constipated.
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I was trying to..err..err.. play dead.
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Aww.. dejavu people?
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The good ol' times.
We used to paint the town red.
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Group photo and Sha's left eye. Sorry, sha.
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So the night ended with Shy went off for supper and we headed home. Went over to Sha's place because she said she had 'ayam lemak cili padi' but i was disappointed. No more ayam. Oh well, went back and slept.
The next morning, i went over to Regan's place and spent some time with him. Damn, typing this is making me miss him more. ARGHH. Ok ok, so the initial plan was to meet at HarbourFront for Sentosa @ 2pm. But janji melayu, everyone reached late. Esp me and Fi. The pics for Sentosa are not with me yet but it is coming right up.
Was supposed to go to St James with Regan and his guys but his sharp eye spied from the bus that there was a major long line so we ditched it. We, at first decided to watch a movie but Rajesh wanted to pub so off to Paulaner's once again. And Kbox.
There was no way that we could fit 6 people into a car. So, u know the joke where, there's not enough space then the person goes, like, ' Shove him in the boot/ exhaust pipe/ etc'.
Chris actually took the joke seriously.
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So there he stayed for ten minutes till we reached Kbox. It was so hillarious! The trunk was not closed so at times, i guessed the car behind us would have a glimpse of an eye looking at them. Like the couple who were making out. ;)
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Ya la. wore the same thing. I brought only one clubbing top from Yishun.
I like this pic.
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I dun know if he was high or he just wanted to sleep or he liked that face or he passed out because Regan farted.
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Then why is Rajesh looking so guilty?
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Intoxication.
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Grrr.. i miss him more now.
I like u bb.=)
We only managed to get the pics in the car. Went to Kbox after that. They got a bottle of Chivas and the bill came up to 300! Holy cow. Talk about expensive talent. He sang 'The Most Beautiful girl in the World' for me but i was snoring on his chest. Sorry baby, sing for me again, k? Aww, fuck, i miss him again. We headed home and promptly fell into a deep slumber.
I miss him. Sorry people, just edure.
That was my weekend for y'all.

Sunday, December 17, 2006
.: Photos coming soon :.

Stay tuned people. A fantabulous weekend with pics coming right up.

I miss my baby.
*sobs.

Thursday, December 14, 2006
Sheesh

I am stuck in school after forcing myself to get off my ass and finding out that the class is postponed to 3 instead of 10am. This means two things, 1) i could have slept much longer. 2) i am going to be home later than i thought. 3) i suck.

I need comfort food. Period sucks.
Hady Mirza's girlfriend is hawt!

OMG, this is so random. Imma get myself some MacDonald's now.
Bugger off.


Microsoft Access sucked. Now, i gotta pull up my socks for the OIRS and Frontpage projects for the same module. Bleagh.

Skipped Marketing today. I left school with a heavy heart. My attendane for Macroecons was 75%! Which is totally impossible because i have been religiously attending it after seeing my attendance dropped. After a brief consultation with my tutor, i assume he is much too lazy to think about it. Well, can't blame him since that brief encounter happened at the chicken rice stall in Food Junction.
Well, Joanne's back!Phew. Would be a real pity if she were to withdraw.

Went over to Regan's place where i now have to admit that i am a Lord Of The Rings convert. I thought it would be something like Braveheart, ya know? Cool shit, i realised. Now, i cannot wait to see the next butt-numbing 4 hours of the second movie of the trilogy.

I so want to sleep now but the house is in a mess. I cannot take it! I am turning into such a neat freak, it's scary. The air-con's with the lavender fragrance filling up my room just makes me kick myself to stay awake.

Ahhh.. maybe i'll just do it tomorrow before i leave for school to finish my weekend in Tampines and out. Thank god for the holidays. Christmas brings promises of a feast and many good offers to shop. Plus, i helped Regan's mum decorate their mini christmas tree. Now, when's Hari Raya again?

I just have to say this. I am one lucky girl. See ya.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Ok, i know they said that exercise is the fastest way to lose weight. I never knew how true it was. I lost 1 kg from last week.

Let's check now on what i have been doing. I have been on cardio all the way till my 4th week.

1st week: Mon: 25 mins treadmill
Speed:7.2

Tues: Dance 25 mins
100 jumping jacks
50 sit-ups

Wednesday: Treadmill 20 mins
Speed: 7.5

2nd week: Mon: 200 jumping jacks
14 storey staircase x2

Wed: Treadmill 40 mins
Speed: 7.5

3rd week(this week): So far: Wed: 40 mins treadmill. Speed: 8.0



Now, tell me, can u imagine ME huffing and puffing away? But it is not just for the look good factor, it makes me so much less sleepy and sluggish. Oh well, so far from week 2- week 3, i lost 1.3kg! Woots!
Now, if only i could get my hands off junkies, which are gettin increasingly tempting now, what with me having my period and all.

This isn't funny. 2 months of going without period just ain't funny. I think my body realised that so... today's D-day.

K, i don't know whether i should uprade my phone or just repair my digicam because i still think K800i's camera's autofocus is too limited. Bleagh.

Microsoft Access is plain killing me right now. I see words but i am afraid i just dun get it. The words seem to be swimming in front of me and i just.... cannot get it... Fuck! I am gonna try again. And again. And again.

Now, i gotta go. Ciao bella.

Monday, December 11, 2006

My brother said,

' Living is all about learning, not copy and pasting. You and I both know who u are but that's not all u can be and u dun have to be everything. Just be you.'

Sometimes, i walk too fast and too forward, i forgot my past.I either forget lessons i learnt or typically,for me, simply discarding it after seeing the benefits of my efforts. I keep trying to remain logical. But i am afraid that is just not me. Though being logical brought many benefits to me, my feelings, gut instincts ensures that things i do not only qualify as sane but also brings lots of joy within me. Be it the forbidden few hours or months, i succumb. I do not want to feel as if having feelings without basis or reasons is a crime.

So here i am, again, out of a phase where hopelessness and inferiority reigned supreme in my life. I forgot, i truly forgot how much i enjoyed having the people i love...and like.....with me. People who knew me when i was truly nothing. Who stayed through thick and thin with me, who knows all my dark secrets and the ugly side of me, yet misses me. To you guys, you know who u are, i am sorry. I forgot.

I ain't as smart as i thought. It gets painful just wanting, stretching myself to please everyone but strive for the bare minimum for a ridiculous amount of relief which was supposed to be satisfaction. I complained about not being the perfect anything for anybody but now, i want to be the best for me. I am done with this defense mechanism in me just so nobody new gets close to me which meant obligations to me when it was not supposed to. I was giving myself too much credit just sitting around expecting people to keep wanting me. I want to stop being afraid to give because I can give so much. I got so much love, ok, care, (for people who gets rashes hearing the word love) to give but held back because i was scared of hurt. I held back with friends, family but not anymore.

For a while, i got coated with a thin layer of glass so that all my actions were subtle. Like someone once told me, break out from the bubble. The bubble where i go to stroke and lick past wounds. The bubble i keep going to, to warn myself to be careful of new ones. Now, i want to break that bubble and i am only going to care when the bubble burst and a new coat of layer will form, protecting me again. Till then, i am plunging head first into trust, something i have a very big problem with. Like an old arch enemy, it haunts me, reminding me of our enmity.

But i'll look trust in the face now.


So, i think it is safe to assume that i won't go to Zoukout anymore. But well, at least i got to experience Zoukout as i WAS a Zoukout virgin.

So we arrived damn early, waiting for Jordon to pass us our FREE tickets while finishing a six pack of Heineken between me and Regan. We went in and I got kinda bored immediately. Me and him walked to check out the whole place and tried finding Melvin and frens but we gave up. We were hooked at the Mambo Jambo, i dun know if he was just there for me but when you hear MJ and Grease, u dun go nowhere else. I can't believe i slept! But it was under the stars so, yeah, bug off. Woke up to find Melvin and a couple of girls i ain't so fond of, well, u girls will understand if i told u but i am not about to. We left soon after and slept once we hit the bed.
All in all, Zoukout was..... Nothing great.

The few pictures we took.


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Hold up. I swear this tall guy had a huge sumtin' sumtin' near his groin. I wonder what was the point? Who said tall or big guys had small thingamajigs?
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We were just writing in the sand. Weird how a heart could cause hesistation.
Anyway, on a whole different note entirely, school is so fast this week. It is like a war map where everyday you cross off the battle conquered. I am so utterly disappointed with myself because of my speech. I froze the first time and begged for a second chance. Since when did Zulaikha ever froze when TALKING? Ask anyone. I guess informative speech with little information and zero practise just does not equate to good flow. Can somebody please say duh? So accounting's over. I dun get it. Dun they have computers for things like that? Tomorrow's Statistics, another topic that should be dumped as well because computers got that one covered as well. Which reminds me, what do humans do nowadays? Oh yeah, they reproduce or try to. Got that.
So i am sooo looking forward to this Sat. NYTOT's birthday people. Sentosa here we come. Zoukout can kiss my ass.
I found this in my comp so i thought, what the hell?
The family during clubbing.
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Someone here was high. Clue: it was not me.
I have no thoughts i would like to publish right now for fear of thinking too much.