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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

well..what a whirlwind

What a whirlwind my life has been which explains why it has been freaking long since i actually blogged.

want to know a very unbelievable fact?i broke up with rajiv. yah. have been suicidal for some days now. i dunnoe what to do. it is not as if i broke up with him because we can't get along or because he bastard me but because he had to choose between his family and me and we broke up because his family cannot tahan the fact that i am an islam and because of that, his attitude really changed and he really thinks that it is the best solution. i did too. but dun drop such a huge bomb on me and expect me to be alright. of coourse i am not alright. my heart aches for his kisses which was brought to an abrupt halt. i mean like now he wants me to treat him like a friend. how is that motherfucking possible. he does not know how much i love him. and i told him i would never let him go but you know what he should not just say it and still meet me and expect me to be distant towards him. haiz.

Eventhough my life sucks now it suddenly seem to pick up. for example, last month i was approached by imodels and guess what? they gave me a call yesterday and i went for the interview today and i have a motherfucking photoshoot to go to tomolo after my werk.how the fuck is that possible? hee hee

but you know what when they say happy NEW year. they really meant new. i mean, i hope i would not be single because i still want him to be with me. fuck. i do not want someone i love to leave me just because of my religion and no way am i going to change my religion. well,he told me he is going to make a decision and you know what? i dun feel good about it. haiz. pls baby dun leave me. pls.*sob

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

amazing grace

Everyone, let's throw zulaikha in the air(if you can carry me) and congratulate her fer finally clinching a job man. Stoopid mother fucker pansy shit did not even call me.

fuck.

i went fer an interview with my brader. actually did not intend to. But was dragged by my sis. Went fer the freaking interview and they asked me to start that day itself which was tuesday. But i was supposed to meet the tots and ijal all that. so i asked,"can i start tomorrow?" and she said if you start today as a trial you might confirm get it. and fer $7 per hour. whoah! so i said okay. and i was supposed to werk from 6-11. at the scarlet hotel. at a fine dining restaurant. at this event. but the stoopid rich mother fuckers there did not leave till 2 and we could not shoo them away so..haiz.

i did not go east coast. too shagged. I could get used to werking there. the way they chill after werk is just 'tangkap' and drink. Actuallyi cud fit in really really well. plus they pay fer ur cab. man, what more can you ask fer? too bad there is no more vacancies.

Haiz.major fight with baby. haiz.talked and everything is okay. life is beautifully unpredictable.

Ro-tot is going kl tomolo but she is cuming to ma house first. i dunnoe bout bitot. haiz, she has been sleeping. man. i cannot go out so much now, mymum is going to get pissed. fer every 3 days i dun go home, i stay at hm fer 1 day. who wud not get pissed? even mr bean wud. wth.

Friday, December 17, 2004

heylo

finally. yesterday i went to the interview shit and to think that i was petrified when fi told me that the place had a lot of mat kotai(mat thailand). but man was i pleasantly suprised. it was a total chic boutique with not so chic salesgirls. well, life is a bitch man. this girl named pansy(?) is going to call me on the 20th fer me to start a trial at the singapore expo and if i appeal to her(sarcasm intact) then i can like start werking at a boutique as an assistant. the stoopid airport guy did not even sound interested. fuck. leks fi, i am sorry.haiz, i even called back but no..haiz..well, whatever.

Still here in yishun. i cannot wait to get out not because i am suffering but seriously, you know the feeling you get when you feel so comfortable and you do not want it to end but you have to.yeah i know. i am talking kok. i got to get maself new pair of contact lenses. and new specs. whatever design it is lah. i have decided to grow out my curly hair but hey, there are some alterations lah. i am going to perm my hair ferst. not now, when my rebond starts to lool like fuck. haiz. my hair looks like hay. well, get back to you tomorrow. you know what, i miss rajiv siah.duh.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

dun wori..i am not a roxy wannabe but the skin is nice!

dun worry i am not a roxy chick wannabe but the skin appeals to me. tell me what you think.i mean like what is up with this guy? okay let me tell you what i am blabbing about aite? there is this guy. i have no idea who. gave rajiv a testimonial. he cut and paste my testi for him. then at the bottom he said. fuck you bastard. kiss my ass. i mean like what the fuck? ni nabei cibai lah boy.

he think he who siah. eh dun mess with me lah eh. wait till i find out who the fuck you are you kanina face, watch out!

phew! okay enough of that man. haiz. here i am again at yishun.

tomorrow i got an interview at capitol building. and another one fer a post at cheers. my baby got me the number of the guy i am supposed to contact fer duty free at airport, i know. AAAAAHHH!!!! somebody answered my prayers. that was where i wanted to werk. haiz. tomorrow i have to call this guy . okay finally i can go and werk. haiz. okay i am off to do what? i dunnoe.i just watched bride and prejudice. if not fer ashwarya i wud have given the movie a total miss.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

freakin freak

it has been sometime since i had a decent night's sleep. ok now this is the perfect punishment fer me fer complaining non-stop about being so bored all the time. take that!

ok let me explain. ok after going to town, the next day i made my way to yishun and stayed there till sundae. now you should know that going to yishun means no sleeping early at night. the first night, sathes one of me bros friend also stayed over and so we slept like late giler, then the next night we stayed up talking, and whatever shit. so when i went back to tampines my...home?... i heaved a sigh of relief thinking that finally!sometime fer me to rest.

no such luck. Mama asked me to go to johor with her. ooh my..seriously she did sum serious grocery shopping and my legs were as numb as ice when i reached hm at 11pm. i know why so late? let me patiently explain to you why. the stoopid driver who was supposed to bring us to Singapore after we went to giant to shop sent his wife back home leaving us there to bit his dust. Frustratedly, we took a cab to larkin which cost 15 ringgit and 3o mins, and then took a car back and there was a freaking jam caused by who? our own custom people. haiz... well, that is another 2 and a half hour. haiz.

When i went back, i realised that bib went to sentosa already. i wanted to go but it was already 11.15 and the last train is like 11.30. but they insisted and i really wanted to go. but..haiz..when i went to the mrt station the last train had left. i felt like a bollywood actress who missed her partner's flight away. so i thot..okay that was that but no.. they agreed to pay fer me cab. so i went.

we went there and at first the thing was kinda boring. ijal and sha fought but they are okay now. then we played(suprise suprise) dare and dare. bwuahaha..it was freaking funny. my dare took the throne as the worse dare. i had to much on chewed peanut's shell chewed by bib, naz and fi. imagine when i pressed it, it dripped with saliva in green and yellowish shades. yucks. ijal pratically vomitted. i m serius.

well, then we took some pics and we swam. then it drizzled and we went. after that i was so pooped but did i go home.noooo...

i went to hani's house then we went to bugis to meet rajiv. i did not meet him fer one week. and it is so unlucky that i was and still am having pms. i was so emotional.we talked and i am okay..i think...let's just say that perhaps he's not whu i want him to be lah. it is more of a person who i need get it? i guess the dream guy in ma dreams just have to take a hike because i just have to accept the fact that all guys will never act how u want, talk how u want them to, and keep telling you things you need to hear. Expectations are damn irritating things. i have to accept that he is a person to,not a miracle. dun wori i am getting it(winkz).

now i wanna sleep and tomolo i have to go yishun again. whatever. can't wait fer this week to end then this sat can find werk again. need to get a job.help.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

here i am still

why must yishun be like one flight awy from tampines? i thank god that yishun is not the place i really stay. well, whatever it is i really miss my mum back home in tampines. but i dunnoe, itis kinda difficult for me to tell her that i am going out at night again and that i am going out again on thursday. i want to say at home with her lah. but never mind i am going to be with her the whole of next week untill thursday aniway.

finally i got some cash fer me to survive.

well the stoopid interview person have not called. i assume that i have to start finding on my own then. haiz, why is it so hard to employ someone like me? do i look like i cannot contribute to the company? bwuahaha. well, they are going tanning today and i can't go. but hopefully i and bib will go and ton there today.

i still have not met baby man, i think this is a record lah eh. whatever it is i wanna meet him on monday, dunnoe if i am like going to go queenstown with him, well i dunnoe.i really cannot wait untill i have nothing to do again. this week is exhausting. hope so lah then wish me luck aites?

Friday, December 10, 2004

job anyone?

heya..today i was feeling kinda bored but hey i have yet to tell you how the job interview went. ok let me give you a clue aite? we first went to metro but bitot and rotot had interview phobia. wtf. so we went to RECRUIT and they said they will call us back latest on monday. well...we met nytot after that to eat and play pool and stuff. here are sum pictures.

i dun noe what the hell is wrong with me man. i cannot stop posting pictures. maybe it is because i just started learning it. haiz. i keep rotting at home. i hope that who-ever the name is girl would get me a job fast man.i kepp pwasting ma money playing pool. whatever. it has been days since i met rajiv. whatever. but miss him like fuck man. haiz..lovesick bitch. whatever.

Wednesday, December 8, 2004

sleeping beauty

today i am bored.

have been sleeping from morning till mid noon.

then slept again from mid-noon till noon.

meeting that jackass later.

and going to a stoopid pasar malam but it's aite because me and ma mum is like faraking bored.

tomorrow going find werk.

please pray fer me.

amin.

wanna see ma baby?

Tuesday, December 7, 2004

verbal description.

hey. You know what? it has approached the third week of the freaking holidays and what have i done? Nothing. just a pit and some nights out going to people's houses? haiz. and my finance is running out. i got to get a job man but i am heading to a job about sales. perhaps i will try to find one in takashimaya. well..better than lazying around doing nothing. haiz. i feel like i am floating and i have no destination. well.whatever.our last pit was a blast at least. i had to be drenched by pure rose syrup. imagine that! and i had to go inside a filthy slimy dustbin. yew! haiz, but their dare were bad too. ken had to chew peanuts and had to pass the peanuts thru the mouth to adeq and he had to swallow it. now that is the worst. bwuhahaha, but they were really sporting. We played catching..huh?..after that. haiz. imagine horses chasing you.yup.they were fast. okay. tomorrow i am like going to do whatever my mum asks me to do.

our pit

here are some pictures of our pit which was supposed to be for our class but ended up as ours.

the first picture is jockol acting as tarzan because of truth or dare. The second one is ijal and his mates. the next one is a pic of rohani,bib and li. where's sha? and last but not least is apiz, when it was still a class thingy.