Hi there,

How you doooin?(Quote Joey, Friends)

Guess what, I finally got the courage to read your email today. Had been storing it on thy archives for a month now, man wat a pussy I turn out to be, huh?

Well there's so many things left I want to break silence, and get your opinion on. Was wondering if you'd still be interested in a communicational frenzy wit mua?

Well if you are, just mail me back with your mobile No: and Ill drop a line?

If you've been perplexity on my life this month, well here it is! I finally got my results yo, got 4 distinction and 2 passes. Graduation's in a month tho, at marriott hotel. Not sure if i wanna pay 100 rental for the gown. Oh yea due to recent stressful events( ahum'hint') sold my notebook and bought a new computer. (who cares?)

Oh gosh, i must be doin a characterless, monotonous number on you by now. OII wake up...

See how I change a depressing, stressful email into a fun one. Skills Skills thats all is required...

Anywho, if your interested, you know wat to do, coz my new sim card does not come wit numbers(dohhh)...

CIao

Ab

Guess who is that? Yep, what a coincidence right when something good comes along, he msges me this kinda stuff. Like what all of you should know if you have been following my entries, me and Ab had a fight that caused him to disappear. What a waste he did not just disappear from the face of this planet or ride off to the horizon with a camel. Whatever we fought about could be discussed in a more adult and reasonable manner. Apparently, there are still guys who are freaked out at very workable things. I replied him"Thanks but no thanks. Bye".

I am like who the fuck does he think he is you know? just go and come like that and we were supposed to be in a freaking relationship for goodness sake. Yeah whatever.

This week has been hectic but let me tell you, the cash has been flowing like nobody's business. And no matter what anybody say there is no way that i would quit that job before my school ends. I think even if i have school, i am going to work there during the weekends.

K, for all of you who is stupid and still dun know where i am working, i am working in 'Black Cherry'/former Chocolate Bar. That, and as a telemarketer. I tell you, the hard work pays off, big time.

Anyway, something big had happened. I dun know why and i know that some people would even kill me for saying this. But i am going on with Narin. Not the kind of goiong on that i used to have with him where i still get to know other people and all. Let's just say that, when he was treating me badly, i got very deeply hurt and then i started to get very numb with him. One thing that i got to hand it to the guy for is that, he never fails to call me every few days just to tell me that he misses me even when i dun say the same. I think, the ratio of the degree of 'meanness' he has shown me pales in comparison to the 'meanness' i showed him.

After work yesterday, i went to Khushi to get a few beers as a customer and i knew he was going to be there so i went to meet him there. I can't explain why but when he is not around, i hate him so so much but when i just chance upon his face, the smiles on our faces are so wide that i tell you, everybody could tell that we haven't been meeting for a very long time. And let me tell you, when we meet, it is just the two of us. Submerged. I have been trying to fight that feeling for very long and just not aknowledge it but i think the time has come for me to just listen to my stupid heart though instead of my mind.

We talked about a lot of stuff till about 5 hours under the block. What we are afreaid of, and then he asked me what is my final decision. And he asked me,'Do i want to be with him?'. I used my heart.I said yes. Syarifah asked whether i am sure but then again, in the matters of the heart, who can be so sure?

So we went back to his place. *grins. And he cooked for me. I know it was instant noodles but the thing is it seemed like a delicacy. I never knew that side of him. And also, i never knew a lot of things like he like to yell in the kitchen and smack people's butt and carry the person back into the living room whenever that person steps into the kitchen. I think i am falling for that guy. Seriously. Now, i just have to learn to stop fighting it.

I think i have to get used to being attached because i think this guy won't budge. Good.

Anyway, had a fight with the bartender but it is okay. It has nothing much to do with me. I tell you, i looked like a minah yelling at the bartender besides Queens. It was not a pretty sight. Me and him almost exchanged punches. Gosh but everything worked out in the end as the boss just said to ignore him as they think he just likes me so when he sees me talking to customers, he get a little more than jealous. Bodoh.

Gosh, i hope my poly application gets through.!