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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I cannot breathe properly. Head and eyes and throat hurts.
Projects piled up and ending soon.

I did badly for Internet Web and got to do remarkably well for the last project in order to PASS!

I screwed up speech. There goes my A.
Marketing's looking good. *fingers crossed.
Econs. I dun have high hopes for the project. Meanwhile, i am studying intensely for the final.
Statistics is good.
Accounting's excellent.

ermmm... i suddenly feel much better now that Friday's making an appearance. For the weekend, i am going to relax. And start next week. It's going to be hell again, just not as much as this week.

I can't wait for exams to be over.
Let's have a BBQ shall we?
I need a drink.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Oh my gosh, somebody hit my head with a basball hat can?

My mind is wandering now which is bad because now is the time that all my attention should be on my projects.

Let me just list it down here because i feel so disorganised now and then i can get school out of my system for the two days holiday (if i am lucky, i think i should off my phone).

Macroeconomics:

ICA1: A
ICA2: Project (dateline: Next two weeks)
ICA3: Final Exam

Effective Comm:

ICA1: B+
ICA2: B+
ICA3: Next Monday

Marketing:

ICA1: B
ICA2: Next week Thursday
ICA3: Final exam

Internet Web:

ICA1: F
ICA2: OIRS (marks pending)
ICA3: Frontpage (Next next week thursday)

Statistics:

ICA1: A
ICA2: F
ICA3: marks pending
Final Exam

Accounting:

ICA1: A
ICA2: A
ICA3: final examination

Right after all my projects end, i will have to start my engine to study for my examinations. And already, my social life's going down the drain, now, *sigh.

So my gym regime has started, Monday saw me running for 40 mins at speed 7.6, and god knows what nonsense things I made my body do, was just testing out the machines there and you know what that meant? I ended up making my muscles all sore which means not going to the gym the next day. Serves me right for having a fast start after slacking off for 1 month. Bah.

Thursday and Friday are school-free, so i can rest. Or so i thought. Was thinking of meeting the girls tomorrow but my mum's asking me to come help out at the shop. If things go well, i might get paid. Oh well. I am still going school to prepare for ICA3 Effective Comm. I know, *cue yawns. But well, that's what happening right now in my life and i am allowed to say what i want to say, no?

So sayonara peeps.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Friday started off with school being a bitch making my craving for beer uncontrollable.

So, i met Regan and Rajesh and we scooted off to Cuppage to find a pub Regan was raving about. Apparently, the place was the same but kinda boring and the beer was quite ex so we just sat down at some random place where i finally got a sip of 'honey from the gods' quoted by Regan about beer.

We only had one jug of beer because we were talking about how much all of us used to love books when we were young. K, not so much Regan, he was bored. I was reminded of Enid Blyton, gnomes, pixies, the world of make-believe, The Famous Five, The Secret Seven, What Katy did, 2000 leagues under the sea. I read the original Gulliver's Travel when i was K2, can you believe it? No wonder i am wearing specs. I remember going everywhere with a book, if not an Archie Comic book. I think Raj is gay. Lol.

Saturday was spent finding another pub that closed down. Bah. *glares at Regan. In an attempt to find somewhere to watch the Liverpool-Arsenal match, we headed to Holland V (my first time going there, can u believe it?) and sat down @ Breko cafe with Melvin and Poh King(i dunnoe how to spell la). All Chinese should have Christian names or short forms for their name.

Bb!

Everyday, i thank god, i met someone who likes beer as much as me.

Poh King

Melvin

Can u see him trying to run away?

Ok, this is a bad picture. Just imagine him with his eyes open.

OMG, i ate so much. The burger was huge!

Ok, i am bad at taking food shots. It is huge!

Regan's King Kong Burger

I had meatball pizza and this yummy sinful dessert of kitkats, coco crunch, chocolate ice cream, caramel, coffee syrup and banana all piled lazily of one another. OMG! I got a total sugar high. After the match ended with Liverpool winning, (yay?) we went back home.

I thought that i would stay in on Sunday and do my school stuff but noooo... my sis asked me along to Marina South for BBQ Steamboat and to watch her husband, Regan and my bro play soccer. Me? I was flying the kite. Stupid apek go and cut my kite because i was trespassing into his space. In the sky, got such thing meh?

Can u see it??? It was damn tough getting it there larr.

My niece and Marlini

He took it from there and got it stuck in a tree. Bah.

Oh, they lost. 6-0. Sigh. They just wouldn't listen. Oh well, i was just hungry. I got so stuffed! This whole weekend was about eating!

They kept laughing at me because i have never done this before and was pretty much clueless.

But, i thought Steamboat was supposed to be FUN?

PEOPLE? would it kill to smile?

Yep sis, we went through a lot.

Oh well, tat's it.

Good news! My teacher was saying that i might not get debarred after all because my attendance wasn't low enough. And he say it like it is a bad thing! Thank god!

Ok, gotta scoot to go do research now.

See ya.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I wrote this post yesterday but the stupid internet hanged so here i am typing it again, though seriously, i dun see the point of blogging anymore. Ala... one of those days.

So my life has been pretty much school and back for the weekdays so there's not really much to say except for the fact that I hate projects. But, i have been taking some pics though in an attempt to just see what is it a human being can do when confined in a school for so long.

So, skipping gym has made me feel like a blob of lard so i tried to salvage any measly crumbs of feminity by indulging in stupid female stuff, like artificial nails! I am a horrible nail biter so hoping for my nails to grow would be like waiting for apples to turn to oranges. One lesson learnt, i won't buy nails with the faux diamonds on it because Johnson's Baby Lotion, Pantene and lots of water would just ruin it. The good part though, i am definitely buying it again. Though mine lasted two days due to my itchy fingers, I am going to buy these cute brown ones that i saw and then maybe the other one...*wanders off.

NICE RIGHT? Kinda blur lah.. but it is damn nice can?

$9.90 for 20 nails.

Pardon my short and stubby fingers. What to do?

Joanne has the same nails. We were both standing at the receptions of IBR room and the receptionist looked at my nail(never happen before,ok) and then looked at hers. So... if you do not want people to know it is fake, dun stand together with the same pose,ok?

Sitting beside these two that day was hell. Gerald could not stop talking. He is like always excited, like he wins lottery everyday. I wonder what is his secret to happiness? And Joanne kept asking me to go and smoke. No wonder, i am always broke. Thank god, ciggs come in 20 sticks per pack only.

This girl just turned eighteen in December but her gift from CJ, Josephine and Jolie was original, comfy and practical. Wanna clue?

Ohh.. colourful too.

Bwuahahahaha.

Ok, the story is this, Joanne is renting Jolie's mum house so she always complain that the mattress there gives her backaches so they bought for her this to school! Which was so unnecessary because they lived in the same area. Bastard sia...

So, there Joanne was, getting laughed at and leaving the mattress in random classes till the teacher scolded his innocent students who had no clue which bangla it belonged to.Finally, the teacher confiscated it, thinking it was some prankster's idea of a joke, and there she waited for an hour to get it back because the teacher was in a meeting. It was fucking hillarious la, ok!

Besides school, i keep coming home because i was like so tired. Then i started taking pictures of my room and i thought, why not just post it here?

I wanna white bedsheet...

My wadrobe with not much clothes inside

The majority of my time getting ready takes place here. hehe.

Not much studying happens here

Ok, now that i have posted all the bo liao pictures just sitting their ass in Photobucket, (I am not sure why i uploaded them anyway), i can finally sleep.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Sorry for not updating people, been super duper busy. Fucking stressed. Due to some econs teacher who thinks i am a juvenile delinquent or something. I might get debarred and i am still having my fingers crossed which so shouldn't be the case since they say, 'If you did nothing wrong, there's nothing to fear'. Wrong! Not when your fate lies in the hands of some teacher who just wouldn't listen.

Bah, whatever.

I'll start off by some pictures when me and the tots went out for a day on the town.

We were too busy window-shopping to be taking pictures. We, meaning Hani, Bib and Me. Nys was fighting with Mazly on the phone and looked super stressed. Just because she looks so good in her pics, i have decided to be an asshole and post a picture with frustrated Nys here.

Hehe

Me, Bib and Nys made our way around Far East where we headed to Taman Ros to eat as usual and just scout the place for clothes. It has been a while since i was in their company. So we cam-whored. I'll lay off the words now because this is way overdue so well let the pictures do the talking.

Ahhh... mars ball. What a genius creation. U bite into fried mars. Caramel..

We were pretending to be tourists in different countries but forgot all about our plan when we got down to having a hearty chat about guys and clothes. Hearty habis..

The two love of my life

Now i miss them. Tsk.

Just dolling up. Is there a diff with my face? I look weird here, somehow.

That's it. I can't believe we took so little pictures but i really loved every second of it. I wanna do it again!

Guys and girls are different. One is not more stupid than the other. So get over it, yaar.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

This week has been a fucking busy week, balls. And tomorrow's just Wednesday. Can you imagine that?

Just now, we had an accounting test which i think i did quite well. Blah Blah Blah. School stuff.
More school stuff. And more school stuff.

I need beer and hiphop beats.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

OMG, this is too scary.
Ok, if you must know, i am just back from helping my mum out at the shop and now I am at home and i can't stop thinking about school. And the caffeine that i took in at a very wrong time of the night is now pumping through my body, making me all geared up to do... well.. something. Anything. And i thought, why not? So, now imma hit the all the search engines on the net to find something for my project.. anything will do. Somebody, gimme a sleeping pill. Maybe i should find some real accounting records to study for accounting. *eyes widen in glee.

Man, this is the best time to run or dance or study or learn to cook. Or KNIT! *maniacal glint in my eye.

Gosh, somebody give me a sleeping pill.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Sing with me!

Accounting: A (2 more tests, must keep it up)
Macroeconomics: A(Project+One more exam)
Effective: B+(One more speech)
Marketing: B(Project+One more exam)

Now say boooo:

Internet Web: F
It's alright. There's still two projects to pull me up.

Alhamdulillah. Marks i should have been getting all this while. I feel the competitiveness in me already. Engulf me. LOL.
I ain't bragging, k. It's nice seeing time and again that truly ,'You reap what u sow'. Though i can do better, i am satisfied that it is a major transaction from last sem.

So, parents getting a new shop in the east, so drop by. At Bedok. The details' not confirmed yet.
Tomorrow's the opening and they were asking me to come over but, imma meet Regan. I miss him too damn much. Just yesterday, i was reading all our past e-mails when he was 'wooing' me and i was 'wooing' him. And it dawned upon me that what i entered in the name of fun have now become something serious and still, so blardie much fun. Honestly, I trust my instinct and i don't mind ignoring the cynical people who say negative things about things that they themselves don't know shit about. So stuff that, ok?

So far, most of my days are spent worrying about school, my family and how fat i am. I miss sweating and forcing myself to push the limits, test my willpower and the satisfaction derived after accomplishing it. I miss that. FYI, I skipped gym the whole week. NOOOOOOOO...
Next week, promise. If not, u can whack me on the head with an umbrella. Since it is still bloody raining like mad. Can't wait for June. OMG, i'm turning 19 soon.

Alrighty, Night.

p.s: Why can't people talk proper English when it is truly necessary. In that sense, Regan's right. Our generation kinda suck.

p.p.s: I heard that one fella in TODAY said that poly is shit and JC's da bomb. At least, that's the main idea la. Oh pls, as if employers wanna know if u can memorise a book. Argue and say that JC students can learn life skills in UNI. HELLO?!? IF they can go to Uni. Till then, they are not employable. At least, not as much as diploma holders and WE can still go to Uni. Take that.
K, i am rambling. I got to get my sleep.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Updates:

Saturday was spent all over town, ok, mostly Far East and Wisma with the tots. Pics will be up soon once Nys re-resized her pictures when stupid Photobucket resized it for her. Imma chande my photo host liao lah, liddat. Met Regan and his friends at Al-Ameen at Bukit Timah. Thought we were heading to busk to watch football but after a sudden suggestion to call it a day, Regan and I retired back to his place.

Sunday was home time when my brother came home from KL. Then, that idiot did not talk to me at all and instead headed for the phone to call Dell. Bleagh.

Monday marks the start of the week with deadlines and projects swimming its way in all of our worries. Also, this is the day, i would ensure that my absurd eating habits would be controlled and when i would stop eating on impulse. So, i kept it to a few meals a day. By lunch, i had a fierce craving for LAMB CHOP at 925. You guys wanna try fucking good lamb chop. Yishun blk 925 and S11 Ang Mo Kio has the greatest ones. Minus the restaurants lar.

Now i am hungry again. Bleagh.

Tuesday was spent in Tampines with the tots having heartfelt talks which reminded me on why i love them and how we will not take each other for granted again! Slacked @ Salihin where an old pakcik in baju kurong and SONGKOK ok! wanted to get to know her. Poor girl looked terrified. Slacked around some more to wait for my bro to arrive and we headed home on his bike that he got back. MOMOOOO. =))

Wednesday was spent with Regan. Gawd, how i missed him. Had a conversation about the dovey word again. Bitter-sweet, maybe? Whatever, i won''t be pushy, we got a lot of time, baby. ;)

Thursday, Joanne, Josephine, CJ, Shi Ting and Nat met to celebrate something. So, dun kpo,k?

Imagine using cardboards as a knife, plate and spoon!

Ok la.. no nid to imagine..She damn serious when eating cake man!

After effect, the cam whore in me started. Once u start, u can't stop!

Me and Nat

Me and Shi Ting

After a snoozy Marketing tutorial, Me and Nat wanted to head back home and met Dina at the interchange also on the way back home. I roped in another gym buddy! Me and Nat were talking about threading and she said she was interested so we decided, why not?

Pardon the double chin. Will get to it. =(

So be wary, you alls. You get too close and imma drag u to the gym and threading.

I think that's all for updates. As u can see, it is rather brief. I am kinda lazy now. And fat. Bleagh.

Night world!

Sunday, January 7, 2007

.: Move, girl, move :.

I am feeling moody, lazy and fat.

Upon waking up, the only productive i have done today is cleaning my house. And I have a number of things needing my attention right now. It doesn't help that my mum have been stuffing my face with food the whole day. I am afraid, i cannot skip gym this week lah liddat!

I dun have ciggarettes now too and i am too lazy to go under my block to buy a pack. I just cannot function now. Cannot!

I need to sleep. See ya.

Friday, January 5, 2007

.: Stupid girl :.

I seriously do not know what to say.
Girls are ALLOWED to feel, no?
Then why do i feel like a weakling now?

It's not his fault. Sometimes, i just feel so lonely, it hurts.

I wish i had sleeping pills because this pit in my stomach is getting deeper and more painful and i just long for tomorrow.
I hated how today was. Things happened lar, right? I guess both were not really in control of ourselves.

I need to make space for people in my life. Because at this rate, i'll be a koala just clinging on to u.
I am sorry to expect things from you. Assuming u can read between my lines well. How i act when i crave ur attention, how i act when i am trying to tell u that u mean a lot to me, how i act when i really need somebody and i want that somebody to be u.

I guess this is when age comes in. I still need a listening ear sometimes. Believe it or not, i am not always at the top of my game and when i fall, i just hope you have enough patience to help me up, instead of leaving me alone to sort myself out.

The core of my unsettlement is perhaps due to the fact that i am afraid to care for somebody so much and not have anyone care that much for me. Which is stupid, i know.

Life is long, i need to chill.

Thursday, January 4, 2007

.: Hollybedek :.

So today's the second day of school and already everybody's going crazy. Call me mad but i really enjoy it. However, this week kinda sucks because my mind's set on starting my workout routine but I keep procrastinating it (Read: Lazy) and also, i feel kinda bad that i am also procrastinating the fact that i got to study and start my engine already. I guess after not working out for 2 weeks and just eating whatever i want, the first step to getting it back which would be to just go and not think so much, is scary. But i am afraid all the jiggly parts of my body are begging me to get my ass on the treadmill already.

Moving on... school started today with internet, no real lesson, really. Just researching due to our OIRS. Which leads me to the next resolution for the new year that i just thought of and that would be to put my 100% in everything i do, which means from studying to working out to digging my nose. During the lunch, there was a Giordano fashion show, to introduce the new Giordano outlet in the school. I dun know about u but i LOVE Giordano. U can always find me in their tops. Basic and simple. But since my new year resolution is to buy things i dun always buy, i got myself a top for an awesome price.

I know i am like being terribly jakun but this is the first time i am buying something like this, u know what i the catch? I dun really like it that much.

I suddenly thought of another resolution, Never go to bed with makeup. YES, something i am very guilty of and u know what's worse, i think it is fun to rub my eyeliner and mascara all over my eyes till it looks like i have dark circles galore and sleep. After watching this, i promise. I'll try my best.

Imma leave now and get back to u guys soon aite? Tomorrow's Friday and imma stay in and rent a movie to watch in his new flat screen TV. That is, if he can set it up. Though i nagged at him when he bought it, it's kinda cool. Okay, maybe a lil more than kinda, it's totally rad. So tomorrow u and I bought would be seeing his TV for the first time. No big deal but then again, u can always click the small x at the top right hand corner of ur screen.

Till then, imma head to bed and not wake up till Mrs BRIIIING! insists.

See ya.

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

.: 2007, balls .:

So, ok, a Happy New Year to all of you. So...2007, huh?

2006 has been by far one of the most unexpected year of all.Looking at Fi's and Sha's new year's posts have sparked a curiosity on what i wrote at the start of 2005. So this was what i wrote.

'2005...where do i start?

The breakup with me and Rajiv.
The tots utopia days.
Me and Sha clubbing moments.
JC life.
Met beautiful people like Syarifah, Zira, Ee chin, ila,etc.
Withdrew Jc.
Worked in club ola.
Got into deep shit with people.
Found myself.(literally)
Fought with Sha
Tots split up.
Met Narin.
Left Narin.
Got back with Sha.
Shifted to Yishun.
Got fucking close to my family.
Became more responsible.

2005 was like opposties sides of extremes. Either very good or very bad. Whatever it is i regret to see it go but let's welcome 2006 with new resolutions and new smiles.

Get a grip on myself.
Dun leave myself too vulnerable to anybody.
Lose weight.
Keep my priorities straight.
Financially stable.
Get a new job.
Be happy.

Honestly, this year, i have made a lot of friends and lots of enemies. I feel an obligation to say this, i dun get angry for so l0ng so, you knoe, chill. I think the most major thing that happened this year was i was finally able to overcome my worst fear. I was able to look solitude in the eye and remain fine in it. Finally, i felt contented submerged in it. I've been misunderstood and i did my part at misunderstandings too. But there was just not adequate information to suffice so my assumptions was justified, i think. well, whatever happened had happened. '

Oh well, funny how life changes now, right? For one, I thank God that i bumped into a great guy who i can finally say, act and talk the way i want to and still find myself in his embrace. The choice i made to relax and release whatever hatred and cynical thoughts in my mind and heart about relationships and honesty. I dun know what good deed i have done but i am glad that i met Regan in one of the intersections of my life where the moulding of my being starts and ends. I am glad he is able to witness all these because i, for one, think that as u grow older, you mellow and i look forward to mellowing with him.

Though i admit that me and the tots are not as close as we used to be, the incidences where we still break down and laugh our heads off with one another despite the time apart ensures that whatever we went through together are still held strongly and can never be forgotten. Though apart, I will always be there for u. Sha-tot, Fi-tot, Ro-tot, Bi-tot, Ny-tot and for name sake, Li-tot.

I am happy now, albeit setbacks here and there. This is where i would much rather dig out whatever patience i have now because this is not a time to just think of myself.

My resolutions for this year would be to:

Never underestimate my own worth and strengths
Save up & Lose weight (clinched but true)
Keep my emotions in check and not think that it is the end of the world when change rears it ugly(?) head.
Open my mind and take the phrase,'The world is your oyster' seriously
Don't give up
Broaden my fashion choices

Class just ended. I got to go.