I just highlighted the only person who is being the problem to my headache right now and that is me. Why do I think that everybody is stepping all over me? That is because I am stepping all over me. And how do I do that? Because in the past, when I look in the mirror, all I see are my strenghts and my ability to be able to walk out that door and do whatever I want. But now, all I harp on is how I am never good enough. But I am.
I used to accept the fact that my life is like this and that no matter what, there are some people who would just talk the way they want and that is due to their own personality and perceptions of their lives. I accepted that and the only person I dumped the responsibility of taking care of me was me. But now, I know that my safety net is there but thing is, the one I am safest to is me. Now, I fight whatever that is my life right now and pine for something else which I can never achieve because it draws on an exactly different map.

And I do not want to harp on it anymore. I am now going to stop talking about the fact that I was acting like a total pushover and start taking more pride in myself again... From that, I shall take my leave and shall update this blog for deeper, more 'diary'-ish post to make the weight in my head a little less heavier.