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Saturday, July 30, 2005

Damn! i look so tired..school is finally devoid of tests for now...Zira and me were like damn ecstatic after our bio tests as it meant this things:

1. no more tests after that
2. It was Friday!!(i love friday)
3. Camp in on MONDAY!!

Wohhooo..i made it through all of the tests...
So to celebrate..i went to work..hahaha..but before that followed nys to Tony and Guy and she gace me a cut an blew dry my hair..reminded me of my rebonded hair..tempted but i dunnoe...
maybe i would do a soft perm again..my brother came to get the free haicut..had a mowhawk cut. abeh tak abis2..call himself handsom. brothers!*rolls her eyes

Went to werk, then went amara and headed off to one night stand again.. i just feel so welcomed and known there..hahaha...macam betol...dina is cute.eh ct? hehehe..then ate spaghetti by the roadside..tak glamour but who cares..haha

going to cheeky's today with Ryan..cause i dun have id.. haha underaged fucker..bwuahaha.
i love single life..agree shy-n?

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

I am back in Tampines..wohoo...Sha, i understand your pain..i was also damn shocked when i saw how many red marks for truancy, late-coming or not coming at all. Well..at least i understand my studies now. least.
I passed my econs and i did not even study. you know what that means? That that is just because i paid attention and if i had studied..tsk tsk! I finally understand maths..trigonometry that is. tomorrows the test.might still fail but not as terribly. Maths has never been one of my strong subjects right? My biology is getting more and more interesting every day. We are now studying about DNA, like the crossing over of genetic information. Woohoo..now you are talking!

Yesterday i went to school at 12 and my excuse, i had stomachache but i felt better and did not want to miss oral presentation. In Yishun. i just can't help myself.. the weather is one thing. the fact that me and my brader are both pigs is another. So yep, meet the parents is on saturday.and i am shaking! Shit!
Next week is my Labrador camp..Again, i stepped in the camp, creating new memories even when the old great memories of that place is still firm in my head. So much fun we had..walking around Singapore like zombies cause we just refused to sleep.
Me and my big mouth. I told the class i like dancing and i used to do some dances and i was given the task to create a dance for the campfire. i hate commitment. shit!hmm..wat song eh..
k lah got werk later..see ya around..

Monday, July 25, 2005

I was watching the latest song sung by Taufik Batisah(yew) and Ray En. At first, i thought it was blardie corny ah..maybe because taufik is singing...Then the lyrics struck me.. it all made sense.

It brought me to reminisce about the old times where we were a kampong with as much say in the world as Christmas Island. Never heard of it right. Exactly. The determination potrayed by Lee Kuan Yew was so great that he was the genius who build this wonderful Singapore. The scenes in the songs weren't covering up a facade of poverty or anything. Singapore is really as peaceful and luxurious as it seems. I know i may sound freaking lame but well, i am in awe. I think LKY should be one of the legends in the world not exactly the same kind of legend like hitler but hey..he deserves it man.

Yet, there is two sides to everything. Much like the yin and yang. With the good comes the bad. Our country's reputation forces the kids to study too early and as a result causes them to have practically no childhood at all. Isn't it good? at least they can enjoy later in life.. enjoy later when the blessing of youth is all gone? what for? Yes, singapore is a wonderful country to be in but not live in. get what i mean?

I am going to migrate once i m secured financially so that my child would never grow up like Singaporeans. Rude, Self-centred ignited by the competitiveness in the country, but who could blame them? Expats seem so full of appreciation for life when compared.
Why singaporeans act the way they do is because it is a outlet for them to release their frustrations..and resort to stupid things..me included. I would migrate so my child would grow up without drinking brain boosters as milk..

I would like to congratulate myself on going to the maths tutorial today.*everybody rises and gives a roar of applause* Zulaikha takes the stand and gives a magnificient speech. everyone loves her. bwuahaha..*knocks myself on the head with a hammer and stop dreaming, mr eng...*drools

And i tell you, syarifah, zira and ila..stop cracking me up. k? sometimes when things are banal, we get a little bit vacuous and tend to subscribe with everything that each other says, if not..things will get a lil bit perilous. Those who dun know what the fuck i am talking, this is the way we remember our vocab words. bwuahaha..

And FI!! i told you to buy fer me jeans!! and that is what i will pay you for not the earrings!! but i still want it.. it's so me(bats my eyelashes)...And you would not want to give 'joo' to anyone else. it is mine!!(roars)..takut kan...hmm

Sha, dorang yang taknak aku bayar per..hmph!halalkan jerlah.. nak kuar ngan the tots...*drags myself on the floor while crying making my own jurong east swimming pool.
Meeting bib and abu later...weeeweeet!!! and my brother(yawn).. well..off to yishun i go on the boieng arplane.bye bye...

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Finally..a blogskin that i love.

k enough of changing blogskins.one day will steal fi's brain and do ma veri own.Till then this would have to suffice.
So much for finishing my homework on friday. i am doing it now. (banyak buih ah zul.)

So on Friday, went to work. Balrdie siti was not there. berak2..then msg me at night,"girl,ikut ku gi 1 nite stand ah..yelah tu..berak pat muker dia baru tahu..ee..

But nope..met Deva instead.. Went to east coast and naming the tree, john.john? what the fuck..
He wore my high heels. A build quite short guy wearing heels disgusting.

The next day met Ragu and talked. Before that the tots called.. said they were going to town..if I wasn't on the way, i tell you confirm aku ikut seh..

At night finally succumbed to CT's temptations to go one night stand.. asked sha along but she was like 'yew! one night stand? tak nak ah'*shocked voice.
i was like 'why?'
Then i realised she thought tat i was asking her to have a one night stand? wtf. I meant the club kental bugger.

And welcum fi.i mean blur..

After clubbing there, went forbidden city but the songs sucked so went to the bridge where fazli and zin was sitting. macam bangla siak. Zin could not enter cause he was wearing short pants. I laughed so much i wanted to pee siak. Went home at 7 and only just woke up at 4. then my brader came and told me about this girl he is starting to fall for. it's about time!

Damn! my money is all gone.. nevermind..monday, i am going yishun. so ka-ching!

Friday, July 22, 2005

I feel so empowered now..
guys...hehe*blush(podda zulaikha)
finance...check
friends..check

studies..getting to it..

Finally..getting my life on track and already got my mindset to adapt to the constant shifting to two homes.though it sucks, i am ok.

School today was fun because we got home early today..hahaha. So i bloody squashed my brain to get all the juice out and well it was worth it. i have the commitment to go and finish all my work today so i have nothing to do on sat and sun. wish me luck.

I love school now. like, i can so click with them now.
sharifah..i promised you i would mention your name in my blog..now will you tell me what you wrote bout me. (psstt..she dedicated a whole entry talking about me) wohoo...i get my freak on wit this girl..same corny sense of humour.

Zira..the sweetie who have a wonderful amount of energy..i think her mum drank too much red bull when she was in the womb..the sweetest smile i have ever seen.luck wit ariff girl!

ila..This blur cock is about the cutest thing i have ever seen. seriously..never met somebody as cute as her. feel like pinching her face!!

(BETAPA KU CINTA..uhhuuu!) get it you guys?*grins**private joke*
Aizat..the guy who is like my best friend. period.
Din: hard exterior..hillarious interior.
there you go..and you say i never talk about you guys.

meeting deva for some prata..jalan kayu anyone? he owes me. yeah yeah..*does the jiggly dance..

Thursday, July 21, 2005

hey... how are you doing? Today was fun!! After one week i met bib and after two whole weeks i met hani n nys again!! I cancelled off a date because i had to meet them and boy, it was worth it...
So... did not go to school just now because i was so farking tired. seriously. i regret not going to "one night stand" the night before cause i thought i was going to school. Well. so...was on the blardie comp till 3 and went to my mum's shop to get my dough. it was a good dough. and tomolo is ma payday somemore. Went to meet bib outside her school and met hani and nys at cb. Was so happy cause i met them and some guys who i got to know to feel soo...blardie good. now i know why i was so lonely. hahaha..
well..gotta catch up on my work..catct you guys later k? bye.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Listening to: Bellydancer. Hey, ladies drop it now, just wanna c you toch the ground.

hey peepy's.

Yesterday was a roller-coaster. Firstly my legs were killing me with my heels.
And the bloody bouncer wanted to lie that the door was locked. blardie liar.

We went to Club Momo to see nys model. It was nice. the fact that i had to stand all the way was not that nice.The model who stood out yesterday was the one with the half-mask and had a purple line of hair under her bob. And the *drool* indian guy with the kick-ass body. i tell you the girls just knew my taste and bib looked at me straight. Macam kenal jer.Haha.
All the fun came to a pause for a few minutes when nys said she lost her handphone.But, strangely, She still laughed despite that. Nys is not so kan-chieong anymore i think. Hahaha..
Sorry girl.

I am so glad SHASHA's back with me. Even before anything started the joke started.
Bandong and milo dinosaur(garang punya). Seriously, kita kahwin sudah.

Me and SHASHA went to Desire 2 with Deva and his cousins. It was fun. He is really sweet and a gentleman and that guy can dance. brr!! but well, somebody just had to get in the way of me and some jalan kayu's prata. Rajiv was like waiting outside desire two for me. or was it a coincidence? He said he does nt want me to get high with a guy i barely know. So he does not mind if i get high with him? Haha...gelak ah ni jantan. Well..terpaksa go back ngan dia..

Yesterday was fun..with people my kinda age and singaporean. I was kinda tired of spanish people.

I saw RAOUl! the guy who wanted to give me a portfolio. for free! woohee!

NOTE: A blog is a place that you write out your feelings.like a journal. kental!
Me and shasha back again'

Friday, July 15, 2005

SHA!!!! I am so sorry!!!!

My phone was left at home and i could not contact you at all! i had no way of contacting you. Yesterday would be a whole lot better if you were there, i swear, someone my age. sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. maafkan aku eh?

The friday started off as usual in Union square where i salsa-ed away.Guess who i met? MR RIZAL! Remember the bald angklung instructor we had? HAHA!! And the best part he was like hitting on me. Going on and on about how grown up i was and asking me to call him and dancing with me. After that we went to brix, and the fella followed lah fuck. haha! I was so high i was hugging everybody. Girls, sound familiar? I always do that, kan ilie?

Then guess who i met again, Shaun ayam from Scarlett hotel.(aww...).He was working there!!! I was so happy to see him. He had no more red flashing 'ayam-ish' hair. i swear it is red!

After that we went to meriot, went to bar nun(i think that's how it is spelled) then went to the club opposite it. too high to remember. Henry( this spanish guy) tried getting fresh with Adora eventually gave up an directed his attention to me..yew...yuckiness. But he gave up too and went with Julia, our bartender.

Went to macdonald's to eat but could not. felt like puking. grabbed a cab and left. brix's pizza's marvelous.

BREAKING NEWS!

There is a new girl in club ola.the name's siti, blur but professioal.still need to teach her some things cause i am her captain. Shit. Typical malay. minah-ish but a sweet minah.

She has confessed a secret to us and i am going to tell you guys cause it is not going to affect you guys in any way possible. Pete(my boss) is getting fresh with her! *gasp!* Pete is a guy who is very particular about touching female workers. If he rubbed against me, he would apologize profusely which is why i could not dream that Pete would,for example, touch Siti's ass when she pouring latte. Pete's body contact with Siti is freaking both me and Julia out. Oh well. he just better be careful and Pete too or i am going to hit you in the head with the coffee-machine.

Moving on..

Today is DE day when i finally meet my tots again after one week 'cept fer Bib though. i meet her a lot. Funny i always meet Bib but not Hani. i dunno, at least now she has a phone. WooHOO!! i hope you are joking that you cannot go today to Club Momo girl. But i'll meet you later on,k?
Maybe will be meeting Deva( this guy from frenster) and going out. At least he has transport, so i no need to waste money on midnight surcharge.

Well..keep you updated lah eh. FI dah balik!!!woohoo.muax.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

What the fuck siak? Tak tahu ah running away ke tak ah. Tapi nie dasar2 dua kepala batu gaduh pasal boring.
aku step kol pikir nak step 'work it out ah' tapi in the end kekek pasal cardboard. Dah lah sha kita gaduh pun macam kelakar gitu. Well, salsa tonight?Wasting tyme and blog space ajer.
Well, yang sudah tu sudah.
So dah pun. no need to read here to see if i will fight with sha..we ain't getting to the nitty-gritty girlfight. In fact we are wearing heels. huh? never mind.

I know whatever i said might have touched a bit of a raw nerve with you but well, it is like that. I could either lie or not. Perhaps it is time you stop thinking that we are out to get you and stop contemplating on whether you should go away from us or not. I mean like yu can never run away from true friends. Ever. Think about it. When i say i can't count on you, i mean i never know where you ae when i need you. We are who we are but we can change how we treat people. get it?

I do not take your silence as anything else but abstinence. Abstinence from being a close one in my heart to completely disappearing to being an almost complete stranger. Am i judging you? Then clear it up why dun ya? i can't read through you like a book.
Then again comparing me to Ijal is beyond insane. Read through twice to realise that you are comparing me and find us similar? You accept me as me? Accept this. I missed you so much i have grown to get frustrated that you can come and go. Whatever it is, look deep within yourself and ask yourself. Are you sure i putting on a pretense to care for you? And if so, why should i bother? Think about it
Maybe i am just like Ijal who can just finish of with an i-love-you. I mean what have i done to prove it right?Shows how much you know. Seriously sha, you know better. I hope

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Listening to: Girlfight by brooke valentine. (love this song)

guess who's back? Back in tampines..joo-tot's back.tell a friend.bwuahaha.

Shifting to and fro from Yishun and Tampines is really torturing me. My homework is to be done yesterday but it is like left in Tampines. How the fuck am i going to do it?

the best part is that i got miserably sick due to riding in the rain all the way. so yep. That is two days of absence there. Zulaikha! what is wrong with your immune system man? I am so in trouble. My studies are going to be a gone case if i repeat this intolerable behaviour of mine.Hey. But it is not as if i purposely did not go. You know?

Well, i am only going to meet the tots on sunday lah,k? shit man.

Rajiv, will you please move your ass out of your house if you want to work as my place? You blardie kental. Shit man. I think i am going to be fired soon. I work too short hours. Well, i dun want to quit but i dun mind getting fired. Pete, up to you man. What is it with me and shit and man?

Nothing happened today. aT least not now. I miss Tampines. In this place, i can be myself but once i am in Yishun i tend to get the influence of my brother's slumberness and damn, i feel very unhealthy.

Well..that's all for now. i want to go on a date. HAha..where did that come from..jangan action ah zulaikha. mana punya jer. k bye!

Monday, July 11, 2005

finally

this is for each and individual tots..
u guys really dun know how each and everyone of you make a huge impact on me. yes..you too.li.

My 'blue queens' bwuahaha
Rotot: You are my sedative. When i am down, i just know that you will be there for me with your incessant laughter that seems to radiate my heart and make me laugh all my worries away. The monkey that i can climb on trees with in front of shah rukh khan and won't give a shit what he thinks. that's how much you make me forget about life's sorrow. When i am down when i had so much family problems that i felt like ending it all, you are the one that almost slapped me and would go bald if i self-mutilate myself again.And she's serious you guys.

Bitot: My oldest friend in the whole world. The one that have seen me at my worst and vice-versa and still accepted me and loved me no matter what. Till now, i can kol you any time i want and i just know you would not put down the phone on me. You listen to me, you dun mind being the one i vent my frustration on as long as i feel okay. i would literally die if you are not with me. i just hope you would be happy always and i hope i can be one of your bridesmaid if we grow up one day and you get married.love you girl.

The tots
Si-ti-tot: The friend who i can hate and love at the same time. Someone who selfishness i sometimes find so endearing. Someone who wants to soar so much but do not know how to. Who can make one big mistake with me but i still can forgive. No matter what girl, i am always yours, ijal or no ijal. during your quest for love and life, never once leave your friends behind. Someone who possess determination to be happy but i am beginning to wonder if she likes putting herself in the depressed state. i can always be the friend who u can count on but regretfully, i say this, i cannot count on you. sorry. i never know when you might leave me. But nevertheless, i would never replace you for anyone else and u are my rabbit forever.

Fi-tot: Someone i have never dreamt i could care for. Someone i admire for her style and her persistence of her self-worth. Someone who got the dream of a lot-like-love relationship. Someone who laughs heartedly with her head tilted back and looks so endearing doing it. someone who reminds me of rubberman with her arms all about when we snaptwist. Straightforward.she'll tell it o your face and no back-stabbing here. Has her own life and does not really depend on us to live but depends on us to keep sane. same here girl. meeting you makes me feel secondary school again.

Ny-tot: Someone new to this group and we need to still adjust with. Yet, i would not want to make the mistake of not knowing you cause i see it in you that you appreciate friendship and you are starting to grow on me. Someone with an impeccable sense of style, conservative yet modern. a body like a model's. Someone who has too much free time and fills our table with silence when her lame jokes start but it's funny when we laugh at her. Someone worth it cause she does not leave even when we were treating her badly. now, i love you babe, and i dun love people easily.

Li-tot: the MIA tot. Nevertheless, we still talk about her as if we meet her everyday. Someone carving out her own life and have no free time. Responsible, logical, quiet. But what makes us love her is her slumberness. Might be called selfish but that's not what she is.she's just like that. Once she start talking though, she can't shut up. And she like fi-tot, mentione above, also has her arms all about when snaptwisting. Elegant beauty and just plain captivating.

I know it seems like lesbianism her but those who knows the love that we have for each other won't doubt that it is all true. stay with me. you guys make me complete. who needs guys when you have six girls with you?

Saturday, July 9, 2005

I was looking forward to today so very much because i was busting my ass for the whole week that i think i expected too much. Today was the day i was going to let myself go and just celebrate the much awaited for gathering with my darling tots. So i woke up after a tiring night at werk at 3 pm only to be awaken by..guess who? my irritating brother all the way from Yishun.
So then i dressed and went to town with them. And the tots were so blardie sweet. They bought a cake to the hill(hehe..puncak cahaya).. and it was a freaking ice-cream cake..yum2..cookies and cream summore. But the rest of the night was kinda mendak. Sorry girls..i was pissed that you guys had to go back early. But we met late and i was looking forward for today for a very long time you know.so yeah..
Headed back home and we were slacking at taka's stairs and guess what i- dun- know- who did?
They poured mineral water all over me and that was not the worst part..it was because the water all flowed to my pants and i swear it looked like i was pissing in my pants and that kind of awoke me from my big daydreams..ehem..nightdreams. and i took the freaking mrt. i was like hiding and hani was like NOT HELPING as she tried to shout the fact that i 'peed' in my pants. and there was this group of good-looking indians there..bloody hell. very hard to find good-looking indianish guys in town you know. whatever lah. i am gonna hityouinthehead with a toilet bowl hani..
Me and bib walked home and that was when i poured out the whole mix of feelings i was keeping and i started crying and laughing..(psst.. i keep crying nowadays i have no idea why i am behaving like a blardie baby).
Ok..the reason why i keep on feeling emo is because i rarely meet you guys and i know i am not going to meet you guys often later also. I either work, skool or in yishun so. well. i kinda feel lonely you know? well..i'll get over it k?sorry if i hurt any of you,k?

Friday, July 8, 2005

Today is a busy and tiring day mainly with me existing in solitude. People are all around me but yet there is just something tht makes me feel that my brain is detached from me body. It is either that or i am just missing a brain.
Well, life is so much better with a computer. my mp3 is finally done with old song like jojo's get out. Phew! i might kill that girl if i were to hear that song ever again. U watch out jojo!
Wtf? Well.. today i am going to be leaving for werk soon. and i might be meeting David. I really want to meet that idiot before he leaves for NS. Damn! just when we were getting close. Thought i even had a crush on that guy.
Well.. to all of you who wished me Happy Birthday on your blogs, to give me the space in your blog for someone as small as me is truly heartwarming. Fuck you lah..tanks a bunch kentals. bwuahaha..luv you guys..yes even you! no.. not you.. the other one. Ah! U!!
The girls are outside now at Geylang buying tikar and what am i doing walking around suntec city ngan baju butterfly.
*psst..warning..i talk rubbish when i am tired. so bye.off to werk.

Monday, July 4, 2005

hey...i know i know where the hell was i all this while..
sorry to disappoimt all you avid readers..hahaha..rite..
Actually life has been so terribly busy. i could not keep up ..so much for writing it all down?
so well.. the last time i checked, i was getting all chummy again with the tots.
Things are still ok. 'cept fer..well, nevermind.
Have been werking in club ola, excuse me but it is not a club where i have met characters that astound me, shock me and frustrated me. Working there has opened up a new world for me where i have learnt a lot about the f&b business and have even contributed certain ideas that have gained a significant profit. Working there has also given me a reason to go and party more after all the stress and tension that the workplace holds when there are too many people.
So every friday is me and Adora(my senior) day to party! Last week for both of friday and saturday was hell for me. Waking up late, sleeping even later. We went club-hopping and the best part was i did not have to even pay a single cent. On Fri we checked out this groovy place at Union square that has people swinging to salsa music like pros and i did not dare to step in until a drink too many and i was like a gorilla on the dancefloor. went to chijmes then to desire and not a single cent came out from me and the next day was a repetition of that day.
Well.
School sucks. i have been failing all the tests but those who know me would know that the biggest drive i can ever have is failure and this is failure to the max. So now, i know my priorities.
just watch how i soar.
My birthday have not started as yet. But nevertheless i just realised something. i have the sweetest class ever. the whole class chipped in to buy fer me a freaking Zippo.. i have to start learning the tricks and i will never quit now.. hahaha..nolah..i will try.
So far my mum bought for me a fucking nice bag and a Zippo and my brother bought me a top i know he does not let me wear with him around.*for obvious reasons. Yep.
so tomolo's a busy day for me. i got skool.. oral exam. and also i got werk tomolo. but i am hanging on..cause saturdays is my day with the girls.. WOOHOO!!
i don't know why but there are hostilities existing int the corners of the friendship i once hold as a trophy but i guess everybody has their ups and downs and the ones that stay together. no secrets, no just shooting your mouth however you like and make a person who really cares for you cry and no holding grudges. Nobody said mantaining a big group was easy but i am determined to prove that i did not go through all that bullshit of getting to know and accepting your flaws. all for blardie nothing. No i love Hani, Bib, Ayeesha, Fi, Nys and Li all for themselves and nothing's going to change that. Even if you guys dun. and you guys better love one another cause i am going to spank all your perky asses if you dun. so there! bye