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Wednesday, September 29, 2004
haiz...Depression!

haiz...Guess what? If you have been keeping up...I thought that my maths was done pretty well...and guess what? i failed my faraking maths...how stoopid is that? haizz...well...but clinched an a for physics and a b3 for a poa...haiz...when i just threw 6 marks away and that could actually decide whether i get a freaking b or a...well...that does not matter..what matters is whether i work hard for this whole month to catch up with ma studies...notice that i talk about my studies often now...i mean Zulaikha?...that is weird...ya know what after my o's..i am so going to have fun without limits..and then i am going to condsider whether i go to poly or to jc...hopefully ah..you know what is the biggest miracle of all?? i passed my english and it is not just on the dot ah...haiz..well..that is okay..you know now i rarely shop anymore...like i have no money now..not that laah it is just that when i do have money..i have no where to go or nothing to buy..then when i want to buy something...i have no money...well...fi's b'dae is coming up and so is sha's on puasa some more..haha...berkat..takper kita celebrate after buka lah eh...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! muax....i so have no life now...


Thursday, September 23, 2004
happy birthday...darling...

first and foremost...i wanna say a big and loud..."HAPPY B'DAE" to my darling baby boy...haiz but this is not the day when it all starts....hmm...that is why i hate birthdays on a weekday...showed him the mp3...i guess he likes it but he did not look that thrilled...hmm...perhaps he does not know how to use it that's why...but well..expecting a little bit more enthusiasm at least...i skipped biology just to meet him so spent around1 and a half hour trying to call him and guess what? he was on the phone with someone else...what a waste...should have gone to biology after all...who knew what last minute tips boon could have given...well..now i am at ayeesha's house writing...hm...i think her mom should adopt me..i keep coming to her house..well...my house is a little unpleasant to be in..i really think i should give up on maths..after all that hard work,managed to get a stoopid 40/80...fuck.. well...maybe it is because i started last minute but it is really degrading ya know? haiz...just try harder for paper two lah eh...but you know what? i have never met someone like rajiv and i feel really lucky that i found him..just dun make him leave me lah eh...

Wednesday, September 22, 2004
todaY is the third day of my prelim's...

today i have literature and malay paper...hmm....for the first time in my whole life i was not stuck at too many maths questions leaving a nice feeling inside...hmm....kinda confident for the prelim's but that does not matter..the o'levels does...oh me gosh....guess what? my jerk's phone was stolen at the basketball court by some chinese people...and now how am i going to contact him? i dun even have enuff guts to actually call his house phone..how lame can i be....hmm...i got him a kinda cool pwesent but i dun think he is actually dying to get it as his longing for the PS 2 is too much...what is it with these games and guys? do you think it is something like girls and shopping? but he likes shopping too..oh my gosh i have a gurlfriend and a boyfriend in him...god save me....you know guys think we are dependent in a sense that we always think of our boyfriends as perfect and when he do sumting wrong..we focus on that? think that's true? hmm...well...i dunnoe...i just know that i have to stop being so emotional and just enjoy whatever comes in my way ah? well...wish me luck..i will keep you updated on his expression upon receiving my gift...bye...



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Sunday, September 19, 2004
well...

guess what the hell i am doing now?i am at macdonald's doing my blog...while my beloved laptop is at home waiting for me...i know pathetic right?well...had a long talk with my baby boy and with him i noe the importance of having some time alone...and not be so dependent of each other...haiz...maybe with him i am about to learn so much more than i had bargained for...haiz...well...about to sign off now..sayonara..

guess what...

i finished my faraking artefact siak...and my folio is close to completion too...haha....well...i have something to share....have you ever tried to be someone that you are actually not and then stop in the middle of the road and suddenly found yourself so lost? so lost that you dun really know who u are at the first place....hmm...i feel like that sometimes...haiz...just wanted to get that off my chest...k ...c..u..soon..muax