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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

hey waddap? just came back and am sitting here with two goondus and one of them is reading my every word now. and the other goondu is searching for food to satisfy the the previous goondu in her wadrobe. i mean her brother's wadrobe. fyi, they are ro-tot and sha-tot.
okay...cut the crap. we just came back from town. i know. i think we are obsessed with the place or something. .. me, bib, nys, hani and sha were all there.
yah..i did not go to skool again today. how can you keep the determination up to wake up in the early morning and go all the way to woodlands? even if it means cheap ciggies... want to see some pics?i hate jc.i really2 pray that i can go to poly..please!
tomorrow najib is treating us to macdonald's..whoopeee!!!
i cannot believe nys is leaving us to go all the way to malaysia and leave us alone for one year. damn!dun go babe...ok2..want to see some pics?

we are pretending to be nyonyas who sleep in the bus.

we at pool..pretending we are cute.memang cute pon.
well...tomolo is skool day..

Saturday, March 26, 2005

today woke up at ten to follow my mum go to the posb to replace her posb card.
I seriously think there is something wrong with the way i and her communicate.
It's like she is the love of my life yet..when we both are left alone to talk, we don't know what to talk about but the love is intense. that i know. Yet when i am introduced to any other family, it is like i can become the daughter they wished they had. Even with my real family, it's like i can never be part of the family. i dunnoe. perhaps time will heal all wounds.

Well, after coming home, i slacked on my favourite area in my living room, the sofa for 6 hours. it was sheer bliss i tell you. being able to laze around knowing that nothing's happening fer the say. like you are given rain in the drought then came along big bad Rohani who came to steal the bliss away..FEE FI FO FUM...tsk!

Went to try to go to greenview to try and book rohani's private. but guess what?the person went to sembahyang and never came back or so rohani said.wth. okay, then i told her the alarming fact that today is actually not the last day and she skipped werk cause she was supposed to. we walked around the whole circumference of the school checking out how many gates there are.for the record, there were four.

Went to loyang coffe shop and memories of secondary school came about. whoah..THE ATTACK OF THE PAST..

i have this line that went sent to me by dev..and i found it all so true..
the worst thing in the world is seeing the one you love with the one they love.
you always love the one who leaves you and always leave the one who loves you.
Dev wins the award..ladies and gentleman..please rise!

miss those days..haiz..anyways.
Sam called bib and hani sayang..and me? he called me a hamster..unimportant reality check.

the tots day out 'cept fer ny-tot.

a treat to remember.six babes at once. you lucky readers.I AM KIDDING!

the day..nothing happened

Friday, March 25, 2005

waddap?

guess what? Ridwan..yes that guy i went out with fer a movie once and then never contacted again fer some reasons..is actually anep's 'best bud'. omg!!!
Just came back from ijal's place. tonned there. The beginning was so fucked up i tell ya.. it was so blardie boring...but at night, when the lights are off. that's when everyone started going crazy and started wrestling..reading cleo with ijal's 3200. whata help.cracking crappy jokes.
rohani is my permanent pillow and i have paid her coe for twenty years but i am returning her to the shop. some complications.*personal joke*
wtf..thanks fi for the inspiration to do this.
yeah!! forgot to tell you the most important thing of all! Went to jc just to check it out and boy i was crying deep in my heart just thinking of the fact that i might have to hang around with those people for two years. like the attack of the aliens and THEY were staring at ME as if I was some kind of and ALIEN! i mean like hello..reflect people.
luckinly found a good enough kaki fer me to cabut skool like only one hour after i actually entered the school.
There was a Mr koh, a Mdm halimah, a Mrs sing. i tell you it was like the flashback of the secondary school.
well..looking forward to my appeals,hopefully*gulp* being accepted by the polys. please dun send me to freakazoid paradise.please!!!no!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

we at pool

life? where are ya?

i feel like i am on a rollercoaster that have stopped fer servicing and now it is moving at full speed again..
my life was full of work and money and shopping and emotional turmoils this whole holiday untill the announcement of the jc that i was posted to. INNOVA JC in bold and red letters. i did not know how to react. actually the real reason why i went to apply for jc is because my parents kind of forced me untill my beautiful angel my sis opened up thier eyes and gave me the green light to go poly and now when people should be contented with their results.. i am going around trying to juggle appeals, forcing myself to go to jc, 'budgeting' my expenses, and trying to make my self not lonely.
and i am tired. and unsure.
tomolo i have to go woodlands at 7.20. whoah! then got to go to ijal's mum wedding.. and ton there.
i dunnoe what to do.

orchard..nothing better to do.

Monday, March 7, 2005

i do not know what i am trying to prove to the world? that i am strong? that i dun care?
well..actually i do. a lot.
i actually feel that people should really get to know me before they judge. but here i am thinking. how is that possible if i do not tell anyone the true me?
i am not the free bird i seem like.
i may look happy and sorry but i really am but i wonder. is this all there is to life. money? love? pain?
then why are we wasting our time?
and i have something to say about this thing called love. i am not a cynic but i realise that love is just a cover up. an excuse to feel something for a certain someone. it is so misunderstood and so eagerly waited for that every lil stir of feeling that crops up in your heart you label it love.
But what actually is love? love means, you know the person so well that you know how her face looks like when she did a minor mistake yet you let her get away wit it. It is not when you know she was never a girl wit a ten o'clock curfew and then you start to change her because you dun trust her outside.
that's crap..when a person is in love..she knows that the guy does not like certain things and if a girl really cares fer that person..she would not want him to feel disappointed with her. so she would change. if a girl really cares for a guy then every guy she looks at, she would think of the guy she loves.
But i wonder if such individuals really exist. those type of relationship that does not require communication..only understanding.
i wonder who is the one fer me..hmmm...

Thursday, March 3, 2005

I am totally shagged man..after going off frem nys crib juts now, went home. i was wearing dance werks t-shirt and short white shorts and heels and my converse bag? i mean like, what a combination. i was too tired to change so i was a walking fashion disaster. i was so ashamed that took a cab. najib, nys, sha, bob,fi and sha n ijal went to the different polys today.
i was so pissed. told my mum i wanted to follow but she insisted that i go jc. i mean like..it's my life.
but they would be on my butt everytime if i dun take jc. so let's just try.
thank god they extended the whole jae thing cause i like so have no tyme siah. but i better get ma ass into it lah eh. i am thinking of getting saturday off and werking on sunday because of the jae thing.
you know what i have to like werk full shift tomolo. shit siah and i have to like find my mcs. i hate this job and i have yet to hand in my resignation letter. better do it soon..cannot handle it.
man if i am going to jc then i cannot werk at all but my real mum says that she would take all the accounts but man. this is so messed up. i so want to go poly.*sob2..
Well..never mind. just suffer and werk like hell fer two years fer my freaking a levels. then it's off to the u to me.
i got money frem my mum but i spent it all like water and i have 4o bucks left. what the hell?!?
i knew i just needed to get something yesterday when i still had money. well. my pay is next week and so is bib's and hani. bib is quiting on the tenth. so best. man.
What about me??? *sob2.well..got to call ridwan. signing off.

Wednesday, March 2, 2005

the one with we monkeys on the road was when we were going to make the stoopid singpass shit and they went all the way to yishun to meet me. soo shweet.
and the other one on the stairs was when we were fucking waiting fer our turn to make the singpass when the server broke down.man!

hey...wussup?
am in ny-tot's crib just hanging out and freshening up after yesterday we went queens. ya ya i know what the hell. But it was fun.
Ijal and najib and bob also came. And to start things up ijal fought with sha first then made up. pelik nya couple.
haiz...farid also went. danced with him for awhile then he did not want to dance. was too high. well. was so pissed that could not smoke and drink in there. the next time go there i am so going to use fake id or find someone to get drinks fer us..haiZ.
well. met my brother at desire. he was so freaking high. dunnoe what the fuck is wrong with him.
well..then went to eat at juliet's.standard.conferm after clubing go and eat prata.why? met this guy named jap. he is so cute! and shy some more. weakness siah..haiz...he asked fer my number. do you think he will call me? haha. well. farid is also very cute also and he can dance. maybe shud go club wit him again man. but not on reggae night. my knees hurt.
i went to give my paperwerks yesterday and they asked me to die2 find the mcs. but i dunnoe where i put it siah.man.
fer your info. i already got my results. i got a 12 fer my l1r4 minus cca points and 17 fer me l1r5. Man! wow! but i am so unsure about whether i should go to poly or jc. any help?tag me.