I have a feeling that this is going to be a long one and a very confession-heavy post at that.

Ok, this is the reason why it is that I refrain from socializing right now, ok and always postpone all plans.

1) I am usually broke and by broke, I dun mean no money at all but because I have to scrimp and it sucks.

2) Everytime I want to go out, my mum makes this face and attitude that brings out A LOT of guilt in me that I am leaving her alone at home and suddenly, it spoils my mood and I would much rather stay in (read: save money also).

3) I feel like a slob because my life is dis-organized and I dun feel productive. Zilch.

But now, I am feeling better. I feel empowered.

1) I dun intend to smoke anymore (it's been 3 days = only 2 sticks!), much less spend 10 bloody bucks on 20 sticks of nothing.

2) I am starting to get used to it and I get the feeling she is getting used to it as well.

3) I am still a slob but I am hell bent on getting that job tomorrow.

Alsoooo, I haven't studied anything at all for IMC. Buying ok la but IMC is zilch. Sigh.
I guess tomorrow after job hunting and all that jazz, I am going to get myself more paper and a good pen and sit myself down and finish the whole book. Wish me luck.

I sometimes wish my bf is not that possessive of me. It's like he gets rashes if I want to be away from him for awhile. Space, please. Goodness.

much loves, peeps.