o I feel very tired and sick. I took off day, was feeling really bad today. I guess, today I need someone to hug me. Not just anyone, no, not even Jay cuts it. I need a real good hug from someone i care about. Where is Bib? I remember she gives the best hugs.

I really miss the girls. Before i meet them, I always think there are so many things I need to tell them but lately upon meeting them, I do not feel the need to tell them. Just sit down and sigh with relief that I am with them once again. I cannot wait for what is about to happen.

I am incorrigible. I haven't showered since yesterday. Dun worry, I won't pollute the air outside. I have been at home all the way and I have been walking around the house. To my room, back to my living room, back to my room. I had no internet until this morning which i stole from my neighbour. The TV's been off. I think I am going mad.

I refuse to meet anyone. Refuse to get to know anyone. I think it's just one of those days, you know? However, last week was really fun. Sat saw me playing pools and guzzling down you-know-what, what I do best, with J.

In the morning, I got this message from him

"Darling, what are we? Just friends? Buddies? Companions?Best friends? What do you want me to be? Dun think 'There he goes again...' Just answer me."

To which, I replied,

"Companions"

His answer?

"Can I please be the only one right now? The only one you think about? And when you find someone better, you must let me know. For now, you are mine only! Ok?"

I said,

"No."

To this, I must stress out that I do not want anything serious. Why am I sharing this? I want to know, why are people always searching for what they cannot get? Why do they not appreciate it what they have? Stoopid.

Syarifah and me caught up after god knows how long. We got complimentary drinks from CoffeeBean because they cleared up our drinks before we were done because I went out for a smoke. I love that girl, she talks sense. intellect is the word that comes to my mind whenever her name comes into mind.

Ok, I got to go shower now.

P.S: I don't know who reads my blog but everything that is written here are my daily thoughts, happenings and I have no motive to what I am posting. So, please pardon me if you sense any weaknesses in my being through my writing and not attack it.

Thank you.