You know, I never thought that many people actually thinks the way I do.

Well, I was wrong.

It's that time again. The time where so many functions are happening that I have to constantly remind myself that I do not need to check with a significant other anymore. Not that I didn't like being attached but being single gives u a sense of empowerment. Right now, I am giving myself time for me to grow. The fact that I am reaching my 20's was like a slap to my face.

I thought, 'Why the heck am I still getting affected by what people say as if I am a child? That I seek approval before going ahead with what I want to do and if I already did it, I turn and see if anyone judged me for it.'

So, I burned all my diaries because they were reminders of how scared and vulnerable I was. Yes, ALL. Including those when I was K2. As I do not smile and reminisce about what was written there. The things I write inside are all painful, toxic and right now, my life cannot get any better so I flushed all those painful memories away. Family, guys, myself... right now, I am going to try to be MY best friend. I do not need anybody to hold me tight, say everything's ok, to fuck, etc etc. I can do all those myself. (heh).

For a start, I am going to find out who I really am because honestly, I don't really know right now. Before that, Imma go ahead and enjoy my Christmas Eve. So, cheers, people.