Don't you guys think it has been awhile since I have self-reflected in this blog? Why is it suddenly I feel afraid to voice out what I think or what I feel for fear of somebody viewing it as my weakness?

This past month, I feel myself getting less trusting of people around me, people's morals. It's like when I see things or hear things happening around me, I lose hope on people, generally. What I fail to realise is, I am built just like everyone else. In an attempt to not be similar in any way to them, I try my very best to be honest, to be an open book, to answer everything simply and explain clearly just so they won't misunderstand. Be it to whoever, acquaintances, family, friends. But honesty is just not welcomed all the time and so I find myself being... diplomatic. Trying to hold on to this dog-eat-dog world and not be jaded.

However, with this lesson learnt, I also found people I am willing to invest my time in. Like my sister, my godmum,etc. And when I actually spend my time with people who loves me with no boundaries and are not ashamed to tell me and want to talk to me, I feel this irony in the air. It's like, how can I be so distrustful to people and yet trust and love them fiercely?

I really do not know what I am getting at. Honestly.
Just writing my random thoughts here. Which was what this blog was intended to be for.