Yesterday, I told myself I give people too much credit for them just being in my life.

Just yesterday, I told myself that I care too much.
I told myself I care too much when people say certain things and get really affected.

And today, I did something that I really thought wasn't my fault and I were to change things, I would have picked up the phone. Call me a girl but it kinda really hurt. And it got me questioning, why are my loved ones treating me like I am a piece of god damn trash when all I wanna do is to make them happy. Then, I think, why can't I count as myself as one of my loved ones.

So Fuck everyone if you think I owe anything because I know that I did not do anything purposely to make anyone really pissed with me.

The devil in me tells me that maybe I should really give them something to get mad at me about.
Because it sucks that I feel sucky for situations that normal people can land themselves in. I'm sorry I am not perfect. And you can ignore me and all but I now make a pact, Imma hold my head up high and not cry for all you useless people anymore.

FUCK ALL OF YOU.

Maybe one day, I'll go back to not giving a shit.