Friday was supposedly the day for me and Regan to clean up his house after his mum's absence from home for 2 whole weeks to go to Kerala to visit their relatives. I wasn't really feeling all that well because I decided to make full use of my bed and the lack of activities to do and sleep in for more than 12 hours. I ended up having a splitting headache and feeling more lethargic than i ever was when i was studying late nights. After reaching his house, we realised that Clyde, his brother had already taken the initiative to clean up (God Bless Him!) so we made full use of the night and went out for a quiet night in town with Rajesh and Alex. As usual, we ended up at Kbox with alchohol and nicotine. It was ok but i wasn't really into it because i had to rush back home at 3 am. I HATE RUSHING! Everybody who knows me knows that.

On Sat, I made my way to Regan's place once again to spend more time with him. His mum was already home with goodies and souvenirs from India. And i got a saree and accessories!*grins. My first saree! hahaha. Anyway... me and Regan went to his football mate's chalet and spent the night there.

We had a major fight but i don't wanna go into details. All i'll say is that, I cannot stand disrespect. No matter who he/she is and who is he/she disrespectful to.Also, If i dun do it to you, i won't stand you disrespecting me. Sometimes, i don't understand just what it is that makes me so soft whenever i am with him, like I feel that compromising is okay as long as I am back in his arms. But then, i realise that you have to be who you are. He is who he is and I am who I am. People meet at different stages in their lives and you choose who is it you want to be with. Though, i disagree with some people on this but at the end of the day, it is you who you should first take care of. And if we just cannot talk, i don't see the point because truly, it is quality, not quantity that matters to me. Which was why I felt very touched when he called back when i know that under normal circumstances, he would never do that. For once, I saw him really use his heart and there is no way I would ignore that. For once,I felt that he finally realised that it is ok to compromise and not be so firm on your stand. For someone to learn and live, nobody should hold their stand too firm to the ground because then, what you hear is what you want to hear and how you twist it to be a yes or no. Does it coincide or not with what you think? It's called selective distortion. I believe you should always give the allowance for different perspectives, different styles of how people deal with things. But that's me, you know.

I knew you loved me a long time ago but that's not why i wanted to hear it because i can see it when I am with you. I wanted to make you realise that it's ok when it's with me. I wanted you to feel safe with me. And now i know, you do.

And i love you too, so much so that it's starting to hurt. Sometimes, it really doesn't make sense to me how sometimes everything and everyone else cease to matter when I am with you. I don't know whether the advices from people around me which are falling in my deaf ears, are valid or not. Maybe i would regret not listening to them one day but at this point of time, i don't give a half fuck. These are the same words i said when i was just beginning to be with you and i still feel it, you still amaze me. Just don't treat me like a stranger ever again. Honesty is key.

I cannot wait to meet you again, baby.