So, ok, a Happy New Year to all of you. So...2007, huh?

2006 has been by far one of the most unexpected year of all.Looking at Fi's and Sha's new year's posts have sparked a curiosity on what i wrote at the start of 2005. So this was what i wrote.

'2005...where do i start?

• The breakup with me and Rajiv.
• The tots utopia days.
• Me and Sha clubbing moments.
• JC life.
• Met beautiful people like Syarifah, Zira, Ee chin, ila,etc.
• Withdrew Jc.
• Worked in club ola.
• Got into deep shit with people.
• Found myself.(literally)
• Fought with Sha
• Tots split up.
• Met Narin.
• Left Narin.
• Got back with Sha.
• Shifted to Yishun.
• Got fucking close to my family.
• Became more responsible.

2005 was like opposties sides of extremes. Either very good or very bad. Whatever it is i regret to see it go but let's welcome 2006 with new resolutions and new smiles.

• Get a grip on myself.
• Dun leave myself too vulnerable to anybody.
• Lose weight.
• Keep my priorities straight.
• Financially stable.
• Get a new job.
• Be happy.

Honestly, this year, i have made a lot of friends and lots of enemies. I feel an obligation to say this, i dun get angry for so l0ng so, you knoe, chill. I think the most major thing that happened this year was i was finally able to overcome my worst fear. I was able to look solitude in the eye and remain fine in it. Finally, i felt contented submerged in it. I've been misunderstood and i did my part at misunderstandings too. But there was just not adequate information to suffice so my assumptions was justified, i think. well, whatever happened had happened. '

Oh well, funny how life changes now, right? For one, I thank God that i bumped into a great guy who i can finally say, act and talk the way i want to and still find myself in his embrace. The choice i made to relax and release whatever hatred and cynical thoughts in my mind and heart about relationships and honesty. I dun know what good deed i have done but i am glad that i met Regan in one of the intersections of my life where the moulding of my being starts and ends. I am glad he is able to witness all these because i, for one, think that as u grow older, you mellow and i look forward to mellowing with him.

Though i admit that me and the tots are not as close as we used to be, the incidences where we still break down and laugh our heads off with one another despite the time apart ensures that whatever we went through together are still held strongly and can never be forgotten. Though apart, I will always be there for u. Sha-tot, Fi-tot, Ro-tot, Bi-tot, Ny-tot and for name sake, Li-tot.

I am happy now, albeit setbacks here and there. This is where i would much rather dig out whatever patience i have now because this is not a time to just think of myself.

My resolutions for this year would be to:

• Never underestimate my own worth and strengths
• Save up & Lose weight (clinched but true)
• Keep my emotions in check and not think that it is the end of the world when change rears it ugly(?) head.
• Open my mind and take the phrase,'The world is your oyster' seriously
• Don't give up
• Broaden my fashion choices

Class just ended. I got to go.