Somehow or rather the euphoria is starting to diminish. I was starting to look at things that i am about to do as something new and fun filled but now, suddenly, i feel as if it is all same old,same old. Which takes half of the kick out of any activity. It feels as if I am waiting for something bigger, better, something that would sweep me off my feet. But i know that it is just me talking because i have all of the things i whined about in the past, but still, i am not happy. I wonder from which phase of my life did i get this bad habit from? I see my teenage years go by and i dun jump into it with the heck-care attitude i once seemed to possess. Maybe i just miss my tots too damn blardie much And my god-mum. Maybe i let myself go too much, i dun know. Maybe i just recovered from a bad food posioning case and now, i want to do something fun but i can't cause i got to go to work. Actually, life's a bliss for me now. I just dun seem to understand the phrase, 'life's a party' anymore. Maybe it is just me stuck at work talking.

I just feel jaded. I know what i need. An organizer, a good pumping workout and a make over. One and a half more week till i get to smell my Ipod!. Bah! I dun even feel excited anymore.

I hope this feeling goes away soon because i got a whole lot of events coming my way. Okay, maybe not a whole lot of, but u know what i am saying..

I just feel old. I need to manage my time more efficiently now too. Taken into account the fact that i am still grounded though not very much. But still, i need to divide my time equally now. Already now, my brother have claimed Sunday to be mine and his day. Ok, i agree. Weekdays are pretty much burnt for the next month or so, only for the odd late nights here and there. I guess next week's Saturday is a TOT's DAY?! PLEASE??? I need to go to my god-mum's house this week, she has ordered me to. Great, now everyone has stopped asking me or expecting me to come by anymore. Instead, they are ordering me. Threatening would be pretty apt too. Guess that's another way of getting the message across.

Can't believe puasa's so near! I dun even know if i will be puasa-ing. See how la eh.
Whatever i am babbling about may not be able to be used against me in the court of law.