There are some things you have to conceal. Something that only you and God would know. Somethings in your heart that you know will only cause disappointment and spark off hurt if you let it out.

These things are better if you alter it to minimize the attention that it would actually cause.

Family. What is Family?

Once again, i talk about this because these are two things that i still cannot fathom. Faith and Family.

What is the worst thing anyone can do to their family? Expect.

When i say expect, i do not mean the normal academical expectations that parents hope from their children. It's expecting any one of the family member to change, to conform to the image that you would like to be. Why must you not expect anything from them? Because you can't choose your family and how they are. You can't discard the basic foundation that determines your characteristic.Family.

This thing that caused many essays in academical institutions. The subject that teachers push you to ponder upon. Why? Because to each his own. And everyone wants to know what the other's perspective of what a family is supposed to be because typical human beings would much rather generalise it so that they would understand it better.

But you can never get it. Just like how one person can never be exactly the same as the other person.

Because that is all it takes. Two people. From different backgrounds, different personalities. Different baggages, be it emotional baggage or metal baggage that they lug around with them. And then, after human nature takes place, u are born.
It's nothing special. Until you realise that the close proximity between you and ur family which is forced on you makes you understand them better. That's why when you grow older, you know many more things that ur parents went through that could cause them to turn out the way they turned out.

And what can i expect when i enter my family who started off with a flat with uncemented floorings and sharing a bowl of maggi mee between a mother and a son on Hari raya with only a candle for lights? And ont he other side of my world, i was dressing in Prada and Gucci when i was younger. I know that it is not my fault but till when would i hold it against them? Till when am i going to keep telling myself that it is not fair to be punished for not wiping my mother's tears when she was beaten up when she was the one who did not give me a chance to be there for her?

It's time for me to let go. Time for me to start knowing and understanding them as individuals. Because i never got to know them as my mum or step-dad anyway. It's much achievable to respect them as people.

And Faith, what is this about determining who enters what religion to ensure that they can be with someone that they want to be with? Tell you what wold make it easier. Wherever we go now, everybody must wear a post-it note on their back labelling what religion they are in. Be it Christians,Islam, Sikhs or even Scientology. That way, we know who we can get attracted to and who not to. Utter bullshit. Because now, entering a religion is not about worshipping God, it's about a matter of convenience. A matter of making ur life easier. Utter bullshit again. Please people, wake up. Nobody determines who u worship even if u worsip Mother Nature, And some people do. So sue them.Sue all of us for believing in something that would never let us down all our lives. Because nowadays, its not about Him anymore, it's about us, right? Wrong.