Can't we all see that it is love we want? All that we need? Why do we search so much for the perfection that is highly overrated in the world right now?
It is because we want to show people how beautiful we are just by looking at us. This applies to most people. Let's go to extremes. Even the extremist religious people, they are fighting for love. Love from Him. Because of the search for the love that fulfils that hole in our hearts, we resort to so much that even endangers the one that we truly should love. Ourselves. Why do the career people still find life so meaningless eventhough they can get whatever material things they want? Ditto for that.
For so long, i have been wanting someone to love me,to know me and just hold me and never want to let me go. I could never find that because i know that the only reason i want someone to whisper in my ears that i am beautiful is because i know that if i whisper that to myself, i would never believe that... till now.
The person who have been hiding and starving for someone better have finally found contentment. Eventhough i know not how long it wud last, i know that it is here now and i am back.
The metamorphosis is taking place within myself. I can feel it nudging me towards many smiles. Yes, i am selfish. It is all about me. I am done with feeling and caring so much for others except for myself. If you are worth it, i would but if i know that my care is all wasted, i would not waste my time. I am going to take care of myself, every square inch of me. I have let myself go so much that it shocked me how much things that i was doing to myself was hurting me.
I am done.Even the old Zulaikha have made way for the new.
Appreciation is bliss.I appreciate the sunlight.I appreciate the people i am around with. I appreciate every quirks they have. I appreciate the things i had and i sure as heel would appreciate things that i would strive for.
I know i am rambling but i feel so happy that i want everyone to feel it. But words can't express what i feel.
So, i'll stop. Smile and drink up people. Let's celebrate.