Fuck brown pointed heels.
Fuck it. hurts all five toes.
Usually shoes only hurt one or two but noooooooo
It hurts all five.

Met shyanne, Rishi. Hera and Hari.
Style. Hera Hari.
Oh well. Phone is cut. Seriously.
That sux. Bill is over the top. Must get a job!
~yawn~

Going clubbing tomorrow to celebrate my bro's b'dae.
Perhaps David's coming. It has been eons eversince i have been
face-to-face with that moron. Wohoo.

Went town just now but the mood just was not there.
Sorry i was such a bore.
It's okay. Friday on? conferm with me.

I am so broke. So So broke.
It's okay. my visiting days are far from over.
Which mean ka-ching! more money!! Yeps.
Well. Tomorrow's another day.

I am taking everyday as they come these days as it is seriously the unfolding of a whole new different lifestyle and a whole new life. Sometimes, i can't take it. But i realise i must get used to this as things will only get better from now on. i do miss the days where i can do whatever i like, whenever i like but i realise if that happens, i would only take it and everyone else for granted. Being this way makes me appreciate things more. Like my godmum which i left behind but not at all forgotten. I am still meeting her a lot but still it hurts. When i asked forgiveness and i see tears in her eyes, it hurts. Things have to go on and it is up to me to prove to her that she is not at all forgotten.
I miss the tots so so much but this hari raya shit must end first. Ugh! wait till i get my hands on them.
It has been three days since i have last spoken to Narin, claiming i was just too busy, and today after hearing his voice, i did not feel a thing. Just transported back to the bitter days that i was in. There were good times but hmm... the cons outweigh the pros. The inevitable has to happen.
What is sure is that i am saying sayonara but timing is still not here. Me and Ab is contacting again, he explained his rude and suprising behaviour of shutting up. At least we are friends again but the trust is no longer there of course.

I have much more to worry about now. I dun need no Narin to make me more guilty of not caring about him.

Something is missing. I just cannot put my finger on it. I wonder.....